Blue (depressed Iida/1a angst/dadzawa) [HIATUS(?)]

Razor Blades

Tenya's Pov

"DAMN IT TENYA, DO YOU EVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT?" Tenya's mom screamed at him, he just accidentally spilled a small cup of water on the floor. "I'm sorry mother, I will clean it up" Tenya said, grabbing paper towels. "Be more like your brother, you useless piece of shit"

Comparing me to my brother... I wish I was more like him, either successful or in the hospital nearly dying, either way.

"You're not getting dinner, fatass" Tenya's mother said, "yes mother" Tenya replied heading up to his room.

Tenya needed to feel something, he wanted, no, needed, pain. Anything. Razor blades. He thought.

He took apart his old razor that he never used, and held up the blade. He ran it under water to make sure it was clean (he is still smart and doesn't wanna get infected) and started on his wrists.

1 cut

Useless

2 cuts

Fatass

3 cuts

Be more like your brother

11 cuts

Dammit Tenya, control yourself

He hadn't cut until just now. It felt good. It felt like he was getting some sort of relief. He went to bed slightly smiling to himself.

RINGGGGGG

Tenya woke up to the sound of his alarm at 5. He quickly got dressed and made sure that his cuts were bandaged so they wouldn't bleed through his uniform. He had stayed up til 2 doing homework and making sure his cuts were bandaged and not bleeding, questioning whether or not it was a good choice.

He started his run to school at 5:30, for his mom woke up at 6. He, of course, got to class before anyone else and read his book as he patiently waited. Midoriya was the first to walk into class after Iida, surprisingly.

"Hi Iida!" Midoriya said happily, Iida quickly put on a fake smile and tried his best to lighten up his blue eyes and said, "Hello Midoriya! You're here quite early!" "Heh.." Midoriya let out a small laugh before saying, "ehm my alarm went o-off an hour early!"

Midoriya doesn't usually stutter while talking to me, maybe he's tired. "Well I'm sure you're quite tired due to your sleep schedule being messed up, do you wanna grab an energy drink, or canned coffee from a vending machine before class? I don't want you to be tired while we do hero training!"

"I would, but I don't have much money right now.." Midoriya said, with a sad tone "Here's 500 yen, it should buy you something good"

"Are you coming Iida?"

Fatass

(No joke, prom queen by beach bunny just started playing, my playlist knows whats up)

"No, I'm good for now! Thank you for asking though!"

Midoriya left to go to get a coffee and Iida sighed in relief. Midoriya finished his drink and went back the classroom as other students flooded in.

A couple minutes later, Aizawa Sensei walked into the classroom.

"Ok class, today we are taking hero classes off to talk about mental health. Multiple students shifted in their seats Iida included.

Iida couldn't pay attention, he was barely keeping himself awake, his elbows were on the table with his hands keeping his head up.

"...and you guys can always talk to the teachers about anything, class is over, time for lunch" Aizawa finally said, signaling the class to get out.

"Iida, come to my desk" Iida panicked. Am I in trouble for dozing of? If mom finds out she'll kill me!

"You weren't quite awake during class." Aizawa Sensei said in a monotone voice. "I know! I'm truly sorry Sensei! It won't happen aga-" Iida was cut of by Aizawa, "you're not in trouble, just wondering if you're okay." "I'm perfectly fine! I just didn't get much sleep last night!" "Alright then"

Iida bumped his cut arm on his desk while grabbing a book from his bag and fliched, "ow."

Midoriya and Uraraka were waiting outside for Iida. Uraraka grabbed Iida's free arm, which happend to be the cut one, to pull him to the lunch room, and he tensed up. Uraraka shot him a confused glance, Iida just smiled shrugged.

Iida sat down at a table while Midoriya and Uraraka went off to get their food. They both came back with full trays and Midoriya looked at Tenya with a confused and worried expression, "are you not gonna eat, Iida?" Midoriya said, half-tilting his head in confusion.

Fatass

"I'm not very hungry today" Iida said, with what he hoped was a cheerful expression. They talked about random things until the bell rang, telling them to head to their afternoon classes, and Iida saw a certain black haired girl speed-walk to the bathroom.

TIME SKIP

After classes, Iida started his walk home. He saw a young girl crying for her mother, and Iida decided to help. After the young girl found her mother, and the mother thanked him, and Iida finished walking home.

3:20. I'm 20 minutes late. I'm scared. Heroes shouldn't be scared. Thats not what Tensei would do.

He walked in and saw his mother holding a green bottle, obviously drunk. She slapped her son across the face, something Iida never thought she would do, and said, "you're late, go to your room, you worthless fuck."

Iida sat in his room for 5 minutes, then his mom walked in.

His mom walked in wearing nothing but undergarments.

"M-mom? What are you d-doing?"

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Ok so next chapter is gonna have a sort of detailed description of rape, so read it at your own risk.

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