Blue (depressed Iida/1a angst/dadzawa) [HIATUS(?)]

Nobody hurts my students

Aizawa's Pov

Everone is in class, including those students.

Midoriya has a black-eye and a bruise on his jaw, he has a pretty noticeable cut along his cheek aswell.

Bakugou looks extremely uncomfortable. He's fidgeting with his pant-legs and keeps glancing at Kirishima.

Kirishima keeps running his fingers through his hair and keeps glacing at Bakugou. He also looks extremely uncomfortable.

Yaoyorozu keeps looking at Iida for... reassurance? She's fidgeting with her shirt and glancing at her stomach.

Asui seems to be resting her hand on her thigh and her bag is behind her back sitting on her chair.

Iida looks like he hasn't gotten sleep in days. He keeps on looking at Yaoyorozu, I think, reassuringly. He takes small glances at his stomach. Then at his legs. He looks sick. He's being careful of his left forearm. Too careful.

What the hell is up with my students?

Iida's Pov

At least I'm not alone on one thing. But what would she think if I told her the whole story. What would everyone else think. She's looking at me for reassurance. I'll smile at her. I'm glad Momo isn't alone.

I'll focus in class today. Nobody will suspect anything. Nothing is wrong. I'm all good here.

Iida payed attention the best he could with his 1 hour of sleep. It was the last day of the mental health classes they were taking, and this last one talked about self-esteem, and how to deal with a low amount of it. Of course after everything that's happened, he has none.

Pathetic

Slut

Useless

Worthless

Fatass

Sex toy

That's all Iida thought of himself. That's all he thought he was.

"Iida and Asui, please come up to my desk" said Aizawa after class. Damn it  was I not paying enough attention?

Aizawa's Pov

These kids. They aren't okay.

"Yes Mr. Aizawa? ribbit." Said Asui as she walked, no, limped to Aizawa's desk.

"What do you need? I'm eating lunch with Momo today, so it can't be long." Iida said, fiddling with his sleeves.

"I didn't know you two were on a first name basis, ribbit." Asui said looking at Iida.

"Just recently." Replied Iida.

"Ahem." Aizawa coughed.

Both students re-focused their attention on their teacher.

"How are your guys's home lives?" Asked Aizawa, knowing well that he wasn't gonna get much of an honest answer.

Iida fixed his glasses, Asui said a small "ribbit".

Iida readjusted his sleeve, and said not-so-confidently, "my home life is pretty good. A loving mom" Iida paused and seemed to cringe at that statement, "and overall I'm healthy and h-happy" Iida stuttered out that last word on accident. "May I leave now?"

Aizawa sighed, "yes, you may."

He got about the same answer from Asui.

They both sounded just as fake.

Iida's Pov

Iida walked to the lunch rush, and purchased something other than a water or juice for the first time in 2 weeks. He found Momo and walked over to her.

"Hi Tenya! I almost thought you bailed!" Momo said, still waiting to eat. "Sensei wanted to talk to me after class for some reason. Its good now. Are you ready, Momo?" Iida said. Last time I tried eating something was Monday. My body couldn't take it and I ended up in the bathroom, it came out the same way it went in."

"I can't say I haven't been there." Iida said, in a sad tone, 2 weeks ago, the same thing happened.

They tried their best to eat, and eventually, Tenya knew his body couldn't take the food, Momo was pale and sweaty, so it was probably the same for her, too.

They looked at eachother with the same 'oh shit' look, then bolted off to the restroom at the same time.

Tenya couldn't hear it over himself hurling out his organs, but someone walked into the restroom.

After he was done, he flushed the toilet and tried to look like he was fone before stepping out of the stall.

"Iida?" Said Midoriya, "are you alright?"

Dammit.

"I'm okay, I think, maybe a little sick." Iida lied, going to the sink and washing his hands and washing out his mouth.

After Iida was done washing up, Midoriya ran up to Iida unexpectedly and put his hand to Iida's forehead, making Iida flinch.

"Hmm you don't seem to have a fever" Midoriya said, "are you okay to head back to class?" Midoriya said, "or do you wanna head home?"

Head home.

I would like to do anything but head home.

"I'm good to go back to class" Iida said.

"..ok" Midoriya said, still worried.

TIME SKIP

It's the end of my last day at U.A. has come. As soon as mom takes her weekly trip to the bar, I'm gonna start writing the notes to my mom, then to my classmates, then to Tensei. I'll take the rope we have in our garage and tie it up into a noose and then, I'll finally be gone, no more being assaulted. No more voices in my head. No more E.D. No more cuts on my arm. No more Tenya Iida.

Iida happily thought to himself as he packed up. If a color could explain the state his life is in, it would be blue. The same color as his hair, and his eyes. He was too busy thinking to realize that he forgot his notebook. When he got home, his mom was putting on makeup.

Tenya started writing all of his notes, once he finished, his mom was putting on her shoes, he snuck into the garage, grabbed the rope, then went back to his room, he tied the rope, and put it on his ceiling.

He stopped for a second, maybe waiting for someone to prevent him from committing suicide.