The Dark Days

Part One

THE DARK DAYS

I was walking along the beach when I heard my mother yell for me. I ignored her. My mind was filled with creativity. I had no good reason to make it stop. I didn't think I would see anything. Later that day I saw a shadow. I was frightened so I hid behind a rock and my heart was beating really fast. To my surprise, nothing happened. I'm in bed with my cat; Brisket. Wha, what is happening. I appeared in my room. I hear screaming in the distance, Is it in my head? But more of an exciting, cheerful scream like somebody won a lottery. My cat suddenly hisses, it takes me by surprise, my cat is never been this loud.

I became lightheaded, but it felt like I wasn't there. I'm taking my medication aren't I? Wait no I haven't taken it in a week. Deal, deal, deal Some sort of chanting then scream. I feel a light thumping on my head. What's real? I hear my younger siblings scream downstairs. My walls are covered with posters from multiple fandoms that fill me with Joy. I focus on my breath, In, Out A leak of stress fills my lungs, and I started thinking of things that make me feel anxious. I look at Brisket who's growling, I look up at my mirror. I see a shadow behind me, I start to freak out and I rush to the door. That action startled my cat. I continue to open the door in hopes of an escape, I stare with a blank mind at my staircase, thoughts roll through my mind when I start to remember what I saw in my bedroom.

I stumbled down my staircase, my legs felt numb. I sat at the end of the staircase, thinking about my last few days. I couldn't really really remember what happened I could only remember my thoughts, my empty head, and the feeling of being trapped which made me have outbursts at random times of the day. My mind was rushing so fast, I had the feeling like I was being too slow, I just wanted to sleep. I closed my eyes for a few seconds.

The next thing I knew was me looking up, I was all alone in my house the same place I passed out at but something wasn't right. I had no time to think about that, I must've forgotten to eat, I was feeling lightheaded and my stomach felt empty. I tried to remember the last time I ate. Was it Wednesday, or Thursday? Doesn't matter, all I know is that I need to eat. I got up trying not to fall, I stumbled a few times but managed to not collapse. I take myself and turn right where my kitchen is, there wasn't much. I start laughing at the humor placed in front of me and the likable people. No one knew how much it cost but it cost a lot. I never knew how I got to this position, I just watched as the day passed I never got curious, I never questioned anything I just slept, and ate that was all I ever needed to do. I had a family, I don't really remember what happened. I tried. I meant to. There are no words to describe the pain I felt. I fell to my knees, I sat there, I didn't cry, I didn't smile, I showed no emotion. Though I felt so much, I guess I never fully healed.

I went Outside, It was summer.... Odd. I look up at the sky, was it always this color, have I ever paid attention to the sky? It felt as if darkness was swallowing me, not whole, little by little. My future seemed nonexistent. I Looked down like I always have. I forgot where I needed to go, was it school? No, I graduated a year ago. Was it home? No, I graduated a year ago. I needed to find a way out. There is an anxious feeling I can't ignore. I have somehow ended up on the beach again at least I can finally breathe. I watched as the shadow person came again. My fear swallowed me whole, as I felt my heart drop I knew I needed to defend myself though this shadow person had done nothing to me, new things scare me. I start running. Where are all the people?

I hate being alone. I soon realized this after I saw something that made me fearful. I knew I needed someone I was familiar with, I didn't have to know them, they just had to look like me, I was searching for the bare minimum. But when I came to this goal I figured out I was alone, with no people, no doctors, no lawyers, no managers, how will the world run. I turned around in hopes that thing wasn't following me. Luckily It wasn't. My mind was cluttered. I started getting sleepy. I closed my eyes for a few seconds, Next thing I knew I looked up at my mirror.

[END OF PART ONE}