Heaven?

Chapter 8

I was at Radley for five minutes when Dr. Sullivan came in.

"What's wrong with me?" I demanded.

"You have a mental illness." She stated simply.

"What is it?" I asked curiously. She hesitated for a moment before speaking again.

"Borderline Personality Disorder." She said to me. What the hell was that?

" It is a mental disorder marked by emotional instability and severely distorted self-image." She explained. I looked at her with confusion in my eyes.

"It's basically a disorder that makes you do things you wouldn't normally do, For example, you trying to commit suicide. It has major depression as one of it's symptoms." She said. I thought about this for a second and thought about Ezra. That was something I wouldn't normally do because it's wrong; so wrong, but I loved it.

"When can I see my friends and family?" I asked.

"You should be able to see them tomorrow, but I came here to give you your medication." She said handing me a pill and some water. I took it and immediately felt sleepy. I yawned and laid down on the bed as she walked out.

"Goodnight." She said before leaving me to myself. The last thing I thought of was Ezra.
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The next morning I was awake pretty early. I was missing home no matter how broken it was. I hope they would come and see me today. A nurse came in to give me my medicine before giving me my breakfast. I ate fast. I didn't realize how hungry I was. Dr. Sullivan came in a few minutes later.
"Someone is here to see you." She said before I saw someone walk in. It was my mom.
"Hi honey." She smiled.

"Hey mom." I smiled back at her.

"I'll leave you two alone." Dr. Sullivan said before exiting the room.

"How are you?" Ella said walking over to my bed. I shrugged.

"Mr. Fitz was worried about you.." She trailed off. I looked at her with a questioning look in my eyes.
"Nothing." She said shaking her head.

"Where's dad?" I asked. She hesitated.

"He doesn't want to come." My mom said looking down at the floor. I sat there with tears in my eyes.

"I'm sorry baby." She said grabbing my hand. I sniffed before wiping any tears that fell down my face.
"It's fine. It's fine." I said.

"No it's not." She stated. I just nodded.

"I kicked him out yesterday." She smiled. I was happy for her. She's taken so much verbal abuse the past few years.

"Good."

We talked for a little while before she decided that she had to get home.
"Bye honey. I'll see you tomorrow." She said giving me a hug before she left.

Dr. Sullivan came in again.

"You're popular today." She smiled before I saw Ezra walk in the room. She walked out leaving us alone.

"Hey baby." He said coming over to give me a kiss. Once he did I burst out crying.

"What's wrong Aria?" He said with a concerning look on his face.

"Just hold me please." I pleaded with him. He got into the small bed that I slept in the night before and wrapped his arms around me. I cried harder.

"Shhh." He said. I buried my head in his chest and cried.

"What's wrong baby." He asked softly once I had stopped crying.

"My dad won't be seeing me anytime soon." I said quietly.

"I'm sorry." Ezra said kissing the top of my head. I just nuzzled into his neck and didn't say a word. He smelled good and it made me relax.

"Go to sleep. I'll be here when you wake up." He whispered in my ear. I felt myself drift off and before I knew it, I was dreaming about Ezra and I. I saw a little girl and a baby boy who looked like Ezra. What? Why was I having this dream? I'm barely an adult! Oh well. I can dream. I heard him say something that would make the walls around my heart crash down.

"I'll marry you one day Aria Rose Montgomery." He said kissing the top of my head. I liked that idea too.
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Thanks for reading guys! Sorry it took so long to get up! I'm almost done with school for this year! Hallelujah! But then I have finals ugh. Anyway bye! Please comment!
- Katie