Fresh Meat

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

(The note)

I don't exactly like writing down my feeling or writing in general. But while practically the love of my life was on a date with my one of my best guy friends, I was watching Dr. Phil and he said that it was a good idea so I thought I would give it a try.

I don't know where to begin though, Lena or as I like to call her Duck..I don't know if she likes to be called that but after i call her that you can see the grin on her face that looks like she likes me back, but I don't know anymore. She is my best friend, but we got into a heated argument over a "date" with a lady friend Devein brought me. He knows too how much I really truly love Lena. But that girl wasn't anything to me but a blond girl I can probably get sex out of. I wish I could take that day back. I just want Lena, but she found another man, and I don't want to tell her she can't because as a best friend you shouldn't do that, but I want her to myself..and I wanted to steal her first kiss. But just as I was about to Apologize, I walked in on her kissing Devein. I guess, I'm not that good at expressing my feelings but basically I love Lena and, I want everything to go back to normal. Sometimes, I feel like I'm nothing better than a fuck-up in the family.

Wow.

While making my self happy, I was breaking Jared's heart. I'm such a bitch, why didn't I just wait? He's not the fuck-up here, I obviously am.

I can honestly say, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to see either of them, but I want to be happy. What if this is all just a set up? What if him and Blondie didn't work out so he wrote this note and told Luke to give it to me? I can see him doing that, he always has Luke doing things for him. Can't believe I almost fell for his stupid games. I'm not that stupid.

I would just pack up my bags and leave but, I have volleyball and I think me and Devein are clicking.

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I had to work on the farm all day. It was kinda awkward considering Jared had to help me. I didn't make much eye contact, I mean once I catch a glimpse of those blue orbs of his..I don't know what would happen. Since today was basically the hottest day of the summer so far, I wanted to dress in my bathing suit so I can tan a little while working. But I thought was a little provocative for me, so I settled wearing one of my lower cut tank-tops and wore my bathing suit under it, just in case I had some time to myself.

I forgot that I brought ear-buds up to the mountains with me, so to break that awkwardness in my head I pulled them out and shoved them into my ears.

After a while, I started to sing along to some of the songs on my iPhone. I couldn't help but dance a little when Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus came on.

"You have a wonderful voice," Jared said loud enough so I could hear. "and I'm not just saying that either."

Great. Another one of his tricks he is playing to lour me in and forgive him and fall back in love with him. Which I can't say that I exactly fell out of love.

"Thanks." I said some sass. I wanted no part of him right now.

"Can we talk?"

"We are talking, Jared."

"I mean, about us. Or that fight, or that day in general. We need to talk Lena, just please."

I started to fuse a little in my voice, while his got softer.

"We don't need to," I quoted him from the other day, "It's not like we are dating anyways" This time I said it in a gimpy voice that he sounded nothing like.