'I love you so much' I could scream to the world on a mountain top,
'I love him so much' To the touch, I love him so much,
The day I was gonna confess you came up to me and said you were taken,
Oh my god, and my loves, the girlfriend was my ex best friend,
And she knew about my lover, it was him.
I cry myself to sleep each night,
I play his favourite song for hours on loop and tear up,
It's not just hormones, though, which are kicking in,
it's also you.
I watch his favourite movie with a bag of chips,
A blanket and no lights, just a bright TV screen,
Then you'll see me in the morning, all lazy on the couch,
As Ill wake up, you popping in my mind, I'll begin crying, just like last night.
The fact that my bestie knew about my crush and knew how much I liked him,
Really pisses me off.
Because now what she does is peck him on each cheek,
Literally beside me to get my attention,
It's not gonna work, bitch, just get lost.
I did love him, I still do,
But you had to barge in and overtake the queue,
I know others like him,
But I'm his best girl.
I cry myself to sleep each night,
I play his favourite song for hours on repeat and tear up,
It's not just hormones, though, which are kicking in,
It's also you.
Ugh, did you tell him I have a book full of secret love letters for every situation?
I bet you told him that I went to his swimming party only to see him shirtless.
Ugh, did you tell him I've wrote poems and songs for him?
I bet you told him that I kissed him on a photo I printed off of us in Primary school.
I have this feeling you told him that I love him so much I can't even make eye contact with him,
That I look at 'how to be attractive' websites to get him turned on,
I have this feeling you told him that I said he smells so good,
That I learnt all the lyrics to his favourite song and pretend to do a karaoke with him in my bedroom.
And now that it's a six week holiday, and two weeks made me nearly die,
I was actually frightened for the holiday to arrive.
Yeah, because two weeks I felt so so so fallen for him,
There isn't actually a word to describe how lightheaded and dreamy I was,
It was like everything was more colourful,
Like when he wasn't there, I went kinda mental.
Like really, her over me?
Not being cocky, or maybe I am, but I'm too pretty.
And you go for a horse girl?
What is in her that really sparks the love?
I know you did that stupid love test yesterday,
Where you tested your bond, and got a fucking 81%,
But when I was crying last night on my phone,
I decided to go on the same website you two did,
Put our names in, answered a few questions,
And got 93%, bitch.
Wanna fuck me now? Bring it on.
So, yesterday was the last day of school. I was crying and crying and crying, like everyone did in my year as we left school. Everyone was literally Soooo upset.
What made me tear up was my favourite teacher was leaving. And what was so sad was that he said, If you ever see me as an old man, and you still recognise me, just greet me one more time. I know it doesn't sound very upsetting, but it was.
Anyways, my year group had a massive water gun fight in the park nearby my school. It was literally too much fun. I brought my massive soaker gun which was the size of my arm. All the tutor groups had bases to refill in, which no one not a member of the base can cross in, otherwise you'd get squirted with the groups biggest gun, decided on by others.
I was in the same tutor as my crush, so we shared the base with some other people. Three girls including me, then 7 boys for us. All of a sudden, as some parents were there, a little toddler was walking around in the water of our base. As my crush told me to hand over the monster gun (which was actually decided to be my gun) he literally SOAKED the poor toddler in the water, and he began screaming...
He was crying rivers and rivers of tears for some reason and my crush awkwardly handed the gun back to me again, laughing quietly as he turned his back on the kid to face me. We were both laughing. Good?
His girlfriend wasn't there at the fight, finally not barging in right now.
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My Story - High school crush.
Non-Fiction*~.It was a hard time.~* 'You weren't evil, you just had a hard time coping with the pain.' 'You had to do what got you through. And if the hard times were to be gotten through, I can't blame you.' 'You aren't alone. You'll never be alone in what yo...
