Forgive Me Not [ Jayki ]

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"He need you the most Jay...
He will do anything to see you again" Sunghoon's said
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"Did he tell you this !?" Jay exposed himself with his excited tone.

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Sunghoon liked his reaction, Jay is not that insensitive after all.

He responded with a node
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This made Jays heart jump
And his expression begin to soften,
before his eyes fell to his feet

and a poute formed on his small lips.
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"So, what are you going to do Jay hm ?"

The later seemed immersed in his thoughts.

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Sunghoon clenched his jaw so hard that he swore his teeth were going to break .

"Jay!" He doesn't want him to delay and withdraw.
This is a serious matter after all, a life and death matter .
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Jay stood up suddenly
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"Where?" Sunghoon copied his move.

But the older only moved by the window to take soem fresh air

Sunghoon noticed how Jay was getting uncomfortable.

Shit.

"I realy don't know" Jay muttered while getting a little bit nervous
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"What you dont know Jay?" Jay can't be scared of anything right now, he should be ashamed, a young boy may die because of him!

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But in fact, Ni-ki was pinned in Jay's mind all this time, no matter how time passed he couldn't forget him

He is been yearning to see Ni-ki, just to make sure he was doing good on his own, but he is such a coward for not voicing out his thoughts and for trusting K's words .

K who kept bashing out his feeling
And convincing him to see a therapist isntead of accepting what his heart says

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As much as he want to hold ni-ki accountable for everything he made him live and suffer, when Jay used to be nothing more than the kindest person he could be on this earth and still is by the way.

He blame himself as the older one of them, because he couldn't surpass his fear

The fear of confrontation and the fear of getting hurt.

Jay hate his old self for this.

He used to be someone with a weak personality, weak in moraly and physicaly.

which left K the complet controle over him the night he had to take the flight with Ni-ki.

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That day they were still at the airport when ni-ki arrived

They were at the underground parking heading to K's car.
Jay got dragged till there after many failed attempts to ran away

Till the flight time had passed
Only then K had let go of him.
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Jay started walking back in hopes that the younger was still waiting for him .

"You do know Ni-ki is gone by now!" .

Jay didn't listen " dont get near me again" and kept heading back.

K walked behind him.
"You thing Ni-ki will forgive you for this huh
imagine his reaction when he didn't find you,
he hate you by now Jay.....for him this was a huge betryal from you, he won't welcome you in wide arms if you showed up again to him".