us - nick goode

chapter 8

Nicks pov:

I was in my cabin just thinking about Delilah . I'm really worried for her. My gut is telling me she isn't eating right I feel like everytime I see her she gets skinnier and it can't be healthy. Even if I'm wrong which I don't think I am she should still eat atleast 2 meals.

delilah's pov:
I woke up to my alarm and noticed nobody was in the cabin. I know Cindy was probably doing counselor dutys but ziggys doing only God knows what. I got up and got ready for the day and went to go see what nick was doing before breakfast. I quickly found him chopping some wood for a fire tonight. We talked for a little before the breakfast bell wrang. Before I could leave he grabbed my wrist and dragged me to breakfast. I got deja vu but soon left when I walked in to the smell of eggs and bacon. It made me sick no way am I eating that. He dragged me with to get the trays and asked me to get napkins. I walked up and sadly encountered shelia. " haven't seen you in here for a while what are you sick something" "no she's just doing it for attention" Becky said. I just laughed and walked back to nick. If only you knew shelia. I sat down and handed nick the napkins. He started eating and I was just sitting there. "delilah." Nick said sternly. "Nick" I said in the same tone. "You haven't eaten lately" "I'm not hungry and I haven't been felling well" I lied atleast about the nor feeling well part. After u don't eat for a while the hunger kinda just disappears and you don't have any sense of it. "Probably cause you haven't eaten for almost 24 hours" "nick I'm fine" "if you don't eat half ill feed you." He sounded serious. I huffed and picked up my fork. I went for the eggs cause I think they have less fat. I took one bite and felt nauseous. I could feel nicks eyes burning on me. I did that 5 more times until half the eggs were gone. I pushed it away. Nick put his hand on my lower thigh and rubbed it. "Good girl" he praised. He took the trays and threw them away. ' you have no will power do you? you ate way more than you should have get it out before it's too late.' I have purged before but only once or twice. "Can we stop by my cabin I have to use the restroom" "yea sure" he smiled and we walked to my cabin. We walked in and nick sat on my bed and started reading one of my books. I went in the bathroom and locked the door. I crouched down and stuck my two fingers into the back of my throat. I two more times before I threw up. I was as quiet as humanly possible. Once I was done I flushed , washed hands, and put a piece of gum in my mouth. I walked out and nick looked at me with that familiar look on his face that I didn't understand. Until he broke up the silence. "Did u just throw up" busted "no" I said hesitatent. "I heard you, del" I just looked at him not knowing what to say. "Do you do that often" I shook my head "no I swear I've only done it like the times at home" he just nodded. " I'm sorry I can't help it I want to be skinny nick" I said quietly. He looked down at me and took me to the mirror. "Look at yourself. You are really skinny" "no I'm not" I said trying to hold my tears back. "I have a big thighs and stomach that's not skinny!!" I raised my voice. "Delilah your stomach is fine and there's a gap between your thighs! Your slowly killing yourself!" I turned to look at him "I've got everything under control nick, something to eat every couple of days is enough to keep me ok" "I feel like everyday you look skinnier and skinnier. And that worries me, it's not healthy" "that means it's working. Taste is for a second and skinny is forever." "And who told you that." " I don't know how to explain it but there's always this little voice in my head that tells me what to do" "it's called anorexia Delilah. Your sick." "You don't get it nick. It's an addiction. Once you start you can't stop" at this point tears were starting to fall. "I want to help you. I really do. But you need to see someone. After camp what if you see someone. Ok? And I'll go with you and I'll pay. I just want you to be healthy. Please? Let me help you" I just started crying and hugged him. He hugged me back and walked to my bed with me still hugging him. He sat down and I sat next to him and continued to cry. "Okay" I said just loud enough for him to hear me. "Good" he rubbed my back. I felt safe in the moment.

Sorry for the short chapter but I just wanted to post something to keep it going. School starts soon and cheer started so I'm kinda stressed rn but as soon as everything settles down I'll write more often
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