Love nd Affection

Chapter 20

 Kenz Pov

I Ripped The Letter Opened ...

  Mackenzie,

 Baby , I Love You . You Know I Ainn Good At Expressing My Feelings bt I'm Trying This For You . I Know It Would Seem Like A Nigga Don't Care , Bt I Need You Girl . You My World Babygirl . A Piece Of Me Is Missing Without You . I Really Could Care Less Who's Child It Is Biologically , As Far As I'm Concerned It's OURS . I'm Tryna Be There For The Both Of Y'all bt You Disappeared Off The Face Of Earth . You Don't Know How Much Time nd Money I Invested In Looking For You . My Dude Choppa Couldn't Even Find You nd You Know He Good w. That Computer Tracking Shit . I Came By Yo Shop bt I Knew You Wouldn't Wanna Talk To Me . I Can Admit I Was Wrong bt I'm Sorry . Juss Know I'm Trying . Ard , I Made This Long Enough . This Shit Don't Even Set Right Feel Like I'm In Prison Again Writing Letters nd Shit . I Finally Found You Now I Don't Want To Let You Go . I Know You Still Got My Numba Girl , I Need You To Use It . If Not For Us Do It For Our Child .

    I Love You Baby ,

Future Husband Tony

All I Could Think Was Bullshit , Instead Of Being In Tears I Was Full On In A Fit Of Laughter . This Nigga Got Some Nerve , I Can't Stunt I Have Feelings For Tony bt Even I Know He's No Good For Me . How Am I Gonna Get Anywhere Or Even Explore My Options If Imma Go Back To The Same Nothing Ass Dude .

What He Fail To Realize Is , I Ainn Shit . I Was Cheating On His Bessfriend For Him nd Got Pregnant By One Of The Two . He Juss A Side Nigga In Love . I Laughed At The Thought .

Usually I Would Be Stressed bt I Juss Laugh Shit Off Cause Stress Ainn Good For Me Or My Baby .

I Don't Need To Be Up All Night Cause I Got Work Tomar , I Juss Love The Thought Of That , Work . Most People Would Dread Work bt I Guess You Could Say I'm Different . When You Love What You Do You Will Never Have To Work A Day In Your Life .

I Climbed Into Bed Getting Comfortable Before Drifting Off Into A Well Needed Slumber .

NEXT MORNING

I've Been Hunched Over This Toilet All Morning , Throwing Up . I Love My Unborn Child With Everything In Me nd Wish No Harm Upon It bt It Needs To Hurry Up nd Come Out .

Honestly , I Want A Boy . For One Boys Are Easier To Raise . Plus , If I Have Any More Kids In The Very Distant Future They Will Have An Older Brother To Protect Them . Bt , At The Same Time I Don't Want To Have A Son Without Him Having A Stable Father Figure . nd I Don't Want Any Of My Future Children Introduced To Slangin' or Gangs . These Streets Are Dangerous .

I Got Up From The Cold Tile Floor Wiping My Mouth w. A Damp Towel Then Brushing My Teeth . Once The Horrid Taste Was Out Of My Mouth I Stripped Getting In The Shower .

I Was In The Middle Of Washing My Body When Dirty Thoughts Filled My Mind . I Tried To Resist The Urge bt My Horny Pregnant Hormones Got The Best Of Me . Unknowingly , My Fingers Traveled Down To My Kitty Caressing It . The Shower Water Running On My Naked Body Wasn't Making It Any Better . With Every Bead Of Water I Was Getting More Aroused .