Love nd Affection

Chapter 14

Kenz Pov:

The Club Started Getting Lame After 12 So We All Decided To Go To Tony's House . He Really Just Tryna Get w. Eli bt She Won't Go Unless We All Go . It's Gonna Be A Little Weird Going To Tony House Considering All That Has Happened nd Now He With A New Chick In My Face , bt I Mean Its Karma Cause I Did Just Do The Same Shit To Him .

We : Taee , Z , Lea , Ashlin , Cass , Eli , nd Asia , All Piled In Ashlin's Truck . I Didn't Drink All Night So I'm Still The Designated Driver . Tony Said He Was Gone Invite Some Of His Guy Friends Over So We Can All Chill or Whatever . Before We Went To His House I Had To Play Chauffeur nd Shit . We Dropped Z Off First Because Tee Been Trippin Texting , More Like Blowing Up Her Phone Since About 11 .

When She Got Out She Skipped Up The Path Like A Little Ass Kid . Before She Even Got To The Door It Swung Open nd She Was Pulled In , Guess He Was Really Waiting .

Eli Good Girl Ass Gone Say " Dang , Look Like He Was Finna Beat Ha Ass "

" Prolly Finna Just Give Her The Dick "

" Eww They Nasty "

" Girl Its Life "

After Z Was At Home I Drove To Each Of The Girls Houses nd Let Them Go Get There Pajamas , Some Clothes For Tomorrow nd Hygiene Products . After Like A Hour nd 45 Minutes Everybody Had Their Stuff nd I Drove To Tony's House . I Parked Outside nd The Girls Climbed Out . I Just Sat There Contemplating My Life .

I'm A Mess , I May Be Pregnant By My Ex Nigga Or My Ex Side-Nigga . I'm Really Disappointing My Dad Right Now, He's Probably Looking Down Like " You Fucking Hoe ". I Don't Have A Home To Go To, A Job, A Boyfriend or A Mom. I Can't Keep Living Off Of Other People, All My Life My Mom Or A Nigga Been Supporting Me It's Time For Mackenzie McCauley To Support Her Own Weight. I've Got To Become Independent .

I Feel Like Such A Dirty Hoe Tho , I Vow To Stop Having Sex Until I'm Married or Unless I'm In A Committed Relationship For More Than 3 Months .

I Cranked The Truck Up nd Started Driving , I Would Say I Didn't Know Where I Was Going bt I Knew Exactly Where I Was Headed , Neno's.

I Parked The Car On The Curb nd Walked Up The Little Path To The Door , I Have A Key bt I Decided To Knock To Avoid A Possible Extra Heartbreak From Finding Him w. Someone Else Considering There Is A Yellow Camaro Parked In My Spot , Old Spot .

I Raised My Hand To Knock Again bt He Opened The Door All Dressed Up nd w. A Jacket On Like He Was Leaving Or Just Getting Back .

" Here " He Picked Up Three Big Duffle Bags Off The Floor By The Door nd Shoved The Into My Arms . He Stepped Back nd Shut The Damn Door In My Face , To Say That Didn't Hurt Like Hell Would Be A Lie . bt I Refuse To Show Him Or Anybody Else My True Emotions I Have To Stay Strong .

I Walked Back To The Truck w. My Head Held High Sitting The Bag On The Passenger Side Floor nd Cranking The Truck Up Once Again . I Drove To Wal-Mart nd Went Directly To The Bathroom .

I Grabbed A Wad Of Papertowels nd Let A Little Water Run Over It . I Wiped My Face Off nd Opened My Purse Pulling Out Some Makeup . I Applied A Little Eyeliner, Some Blush, nd A Coat Of Lipstick . I Don't Really Wear Makeup bt I Needed Something To Mask The Pain . When I Was Finished I Walked Out .

Since I'm Already Here Might As Well Pick Up Some Snacks. I Walked Down A Few Aisle Picking Up Chips, Soda, Cookies, Candy, Alcohol nd I Picked Up Some Promethazine , I'm Tryna Lean Tonight . I Went To Deli nd Ordered 2 Large Pizzas nd A 20 Piece Wing . After I Had Everything I Went To The Front To Pay . I Was Finna Go To The Self Check Out bt I Found A Line w. Only One Person . I Got In The Line nd Waited , It Didn't Take That Long Since They Only Had Some Rellos .