How Fucking Great || Random Piece Of Writing

14th of March 2018

Hey diary (still don't know If I should call you that) sorry it's been 2 WHOLE days since I last wrote in you, I'll catch you up.

You won't believe it although you probably will, yesterday on the 13th of March at 3:15pm when I got onto the bus, I had seen the most prettiest girl I've ever seen, I wish I could see there gorgeous face again, she had short fluffy hair, one half pink and the other half black, gorgeous brown eyes and tanned skin and it looked like the most softest looking skin I've ever seen, they were at least 5'7 and around my age, and have off BIGG LGBTQ+ vibes

But I'm not gonna get too carried away, someone would think I have a crush on her, which I DONT, and even if I did it's not like I'm gonna have a chance with them, they're way out of my league and to get a chance with them I actually have to talk, and I don't talk, I can't let new people into my life especially a girl I don't know, she could be straight and homophobic, then I'd be smashed so I think I'll play things safe and remain closeted and the school freak.

Also the most popular girl in school came up to me and asked for my number, of course I said yes but I really wish I could've said no, but if I were to say no I'd have every guy and girl in school asking me "Why did you say no to Karscell?", but I really wish I did say no, because now I'm getting messages telling me how weak, ugly and fat I am, and now as I think about it, I'm not actually as pretty as I thought, she has gorgeous hazel eyes and I have boring black eyes, she has blonde long wavy hair with a hint of Brown, and I have short straight brown hair, and most of all she's white and I'm Asian.

I guess this escalated quickly, I'm gonna go and cry this out.

 Bye diary, I love you xx