I sat at my desk painting random things that came to mind. It had been 4 years since el had came to move in with us and I now see her as my sister! El is also a really fun person to hang around and talk to.
Ive been working on this painting for about a month now and I finally finished it. It isn't my best work but I really do like it because it's sets such a good mood. El says that I should be an artist and I've been thinking about it lately.
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I've also been a little sad lately, me and Mike haven't been talking as much as I thought we would have been ever since we moved. I really do miss talking to him but I also don't wanna bother him at the same time.
The last time we sent letters and talked on the phone was more than 2 months ago. I also think I might have feelings for mike! I mean I've tried to push away the thoughts about me liking him but I just can't.
Sometimes I think about us holding hands and kissing under the stars. I know it might sound cringe but it's all I've ever wanted to do with him. But I have good news! Mike is visiting in 1 day.
I've been kinda nervous about it tho. I don't want Mike finding anything out by my expressions. But it's also good because I'll finally get to talk to him again. I hear a knock on my door and I assume it's el so I tell her to come in.
El: hey will... so are you excited about Mike coming over?
Will: i-i don't know el.. I mean you know how I feel.
El: will it's nothing to worry about, Really! But I really think you should tell him
Will: you know he won't feel the same el! I don't wanna ruin our friendship that we have over something so stupid!
El: I mean I'm just saying.. you never know will. What if he liked you back and you didn't know because you never said anything.
Will: I'll think about it okay?
El: okay whatever you say.
I heard my bedroom door shut and she left me there to think about what she said. Does she know something I don't? Or maybe she was just giving me hope. I grabbed my diary and started writing into it.
Diary note: Dear diary I think I might have a crush on my best friend. I don't know how this happened but I really do love him. El thinks that I should tell him but I'm not to sure about it. I mean he would probably think I'm a weirdo or even hate me, Mike doesn't seem like the type to have a crush on a boy. I just don't think it's a good idea. I'm also very nervous about Mike coming to stay for a month. I mean that's a very long time and he might catch on. But for now I'll go but I promise I'll update you later!
Love will
I closed my diary and slid it under my bed. I keep it under there because I don't want anyone to find it. If anyone read that they would probably think I'm a freak!
