Phobia

Chapter Five

Hi!

Idara Starr's pov...

Shine like the stars
Glow like the sun
Don't let them see...the shadows that lurk around.
__________Idara.

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I'm tired!

That was the first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning. For the past three years, it has been the first thing I think of when I wake up from sleep.

Weird right? That I'll be tired the very moment I awake but it's my normalcy, I'll probably freak out the day I wake up without feeling exhausted.

The second thing I think of is I'm hungry, now this one depresses me way more than the former.

My stomach grumbles loudly, I'll be embarrassed if I had company but it's just me so I ignore the noise and the pain that comes after.

Today, I had a party to organize, and I'll be damned if I don't give them one they'll babble about for the rest of their existence.

I make my way to my three-way standing mirror and admire my million-dollar face and perfect body through my Victoria's secret night dress. The dress was sleeveless and transparent. The tiny straps to my waist was made of lace while the waist to my mid-thigh was made with silk.

According to my mom and manager, I had to dress to please even when I was in the comfort of my ridiculous princess-themed bedroom, after all, sexy nightgowns improve sleep.

In the eyes of the world, I was living 'the life' almost every girl my age dreamed of. As a well-recognized actress and international model with fame and an extravagant lifestyle, I was the envy of many girls.

The truth is that the grass isn't always greener on the other side and all that glitters isn't always gold.

I wonder if I would have given up pursuing this dream if I had known that it took just as much as it gave.

I glance at the wall clock hanging in the corner and it read 5:15 am, in less than an hour my mum will be here to remind me of my very busy schedule, so I drag my tired body to the bathroom, hopefully, I'll feel a bit more awake after a shower.

I make my way to the breakfast table before my mum has the opportunity to lecture me. My dad's twinkling eyes meet mine and he mirrors my smile.

"My princess is up early this morning, have pigs started flying?" He glances at his wristwatch again with surprise.

"Good morning to you too daddy," I kiss his cheeks as I greet him sweetly. My dad is by far the best father in the world.

"Good morning baby. I'm curious though, your mum usually has to scold you out of bed but you are up and about so early, I'm confused, what is going on?" He narrows his eyes at me with a teasing smile playing on his lips.

"I have my back-to-school party scheduled today among other things, so I decided to have an early start. You know what they say, wake late and win late, and I love to win early." I wink at him as I take my place at the table.

"Nicely said, darling! Let's just hope you stick to this resolution and your mum wouldn't be back to dragging you out of bed." He teased.

"Daddy! Actually, you are right, let's just take it one day at a time." I honestly don't know if I'll be able to get off the bed without the pills tomorrow.

"Atta girl!." He high-fives me and I smile brightly at him. These little moments with my dad always make my day.

"Great! You are up early, have your breakfast, and get dressed. Your first appointment is in two hours, you have that shoot with sunshine boots." My mum comes in, have I mentioned that my mum is also my manager? Sometimes I feel she's more of my manager than she is my mum.