rider x goggles // coroika one shots

they dont know who i am anymore.

a/n- i had a better written version but i accidentally deleted it all instead of copying it. im still upset about it </3

pov: rider

goggles...

they just took him away. just like that, without hesitation. seeing him confused as he gets dragged off and looking at me for some explanation—i wish i could explain it to you, goggles. but it seems like this is the last time i'll ever speak to you.

getting sanitized changes a lot of things. i could never get back to how my life used to be. with a faded neon green inked on the left side of my face, i could never hide that past of mine. i'll forever be known for 'participating' on that side of evil, the one that could've killed them all.

before, i used to be respected. i was looked at like a powerful figure that most dared not to anger. now, i'm feared for the wrong reasons.

i see the glares and i hear the whispers. i know what they say and i know what they think. they all call me a monster, one that can break out at any moment. they act like i'm mentally ill, but i'm not. they're all wrong.

they have no idea what i've been through. being sanitized sounds scary but the process of it is even scarier. i felt chained. i felt like i had no say in what i did—in fact, i had no say at all. i couldn't think for myself and was always doing something i didn't want to do.

but now, i've unwrapped those chains, i've freed my brain. i can think clearly now, maybe clearer than ever. i can think for myself once more and not hurt the ones i love. i won't have to stand witness to shameless fights i never wanted to fight, im free.

the inklings of this city don't see the same though, especially my peers. they treat me like i'm still sanitized. to the point where they'll intervine and take away the one person that makes me feel normal—goggles.

his team can't bear to see me with goggles. they think i'll hurt him or even worse—kill him. how could i ever hurt the one i love, let alone kill him? i'll protect goggles til the day i die, no matter what.

but...

does goggles know that?

his team could be saying all this horrible shit about me to him. he's innocent but gullible. i don't think he'll believe it but, there's a chance he will.

they don't know who i am.

to take away the one i love. the one i desire. goggles loves me in his own goofy way, but his team is always looking for a way to have goggles hate me. i guess they have their chance now.

they don't know who i am anymore.