Just Trying to Keep Up {Niall Horan Fan Fic}

Chapter 12{Awkward Ruins Everything}

Chapter 12 {Awkward Ruins Everyhing}

Nialls POV:

I lay on Florence's couch pretending to be asleep so she can leave me alone for some time. She forgot that I had to tell her something. I'm glad that she forgot that I had something to tell her. Florence and I have been on and off in our relationship. Sometimes she could be making the first move, but it just goes too fast. Other times I make the move, but she's in a bad mood. It's just never the right time. But I want it to be the right time, I NEED a right time. I can't keep everything bundled up inside, I need to show her how much I love her without feeling guilty about us not being together. For all I know she could still be interested in George. But that thought couldn't get the best of me. I can show her that I'm the one for her. I mean I already told her I loved her, but on the way home it just got awkward again.

That's because I hurt her again.

In the hospital room.

When I stopped her.

Shit.

But wait.

She never seemed hurt.

But-

I don't know.

I just need to do something. Soon.

I slowly rose my head off the edge of the couch and quickly rose the rest of my body. Quick pain rushed through my body but I pushed it back and slowly walked towards the stairway. I got up to the stairway and roughly grasped the rail to pull myself up the stairs without bringing too much pain. As I escalated faster it became easier to walk up without bringing too much pain to myself. Once I got to the top I went down the hallway to Florence's room and knocked on her door.

"Come in!" She responded quickly.

I slowly opened the door to find her sitting on her bed, reading. She kept on reading not noticing who was the one who entered her bedroom.

"Hi." I said.

She looks up to my familiar voice in surprise.

"What are you doing?" She asks whole frantically throwing her book down.

"Remember at the hospital how I told you I needed to tell you something?" I asked.

"Now I do."

"Well... I wanted to tell you now." I start slowly. She blinks at me expecting to go on.

"I really, really need you Florence. I mean really. I figured you already figured that out, but I needed you to hear it." I say.

She sits there in silence, not knowing how to respond.

"I," she starts saying, "I need you too."

I smile to myself in relief.

"Also.. I'm sorry I've been so picky with my emotions. Things have been... diffucult." She says.

"I know they have." I say.

I walk over to her bed and sit down by her. I lean close to her, close enough to kiss her.

"Will you be willing to get back with me?" I ask nervously.

She looks down and starts playing with the cover of her book. She shrugs and looks back up at me.

"Niall..." She starts with a crack in her voice.

This is when I know I should be scared. I suck in a deep breath of air waiting to be let down by Florence.

"I just... I just... I don't know." She says in a shakey voice.

I wrap my arms around her and hold her close. I nuzzle my head into her neck and try to comfort her.

"Niall. None of my relation ships work. Never. And I don't want to risk it."

I look up into her dark brown eyes and give her a serious look.

"Florence, I will never, ever let you go. I will hold on to you as tight as I can. I will never let you or Emma Claire go, cause I can't lose either of you again." I say.

Her eyes fill up with tears and she flings her arms around me and let's her tears flow out.

"Why does everything have to be emotionally shitted up, Niall?" She asks.

I laugh a little and respond with "I don't know." And kiss her forehead softly and hold her tightly in my arms.

"Can we just get back together?" I ask.

She stays silent.

"Please?"

She stays silent a little longer and then let's out a big sigh.

"Okay. Lets get back together." She says.