The Governor's Wife

Governor

The therapist said this would be good for me to cope. She says writing it down is good for mental health. I've finished grieving for my wife that passed. But it's what happened before and after that, I need help with accepting. A week before my wife passed I slept with my best friend's wife. It sounds a lot worse than it is.

I went to an office party. My best friend Ben and his two twin boys were out of town visiting family. My wife was asleep on the couch when left. And my two daughters Lani and Scarlett went with Ben. she was there. I'd rather not write her name. I'll call her "Fran". Fran was at the office party, she worked there so it wasn't unusual. I had gone out for a while so I was partying it up. There were plenty of people there, maybe 30-45 people. The whole night Fran and I were together which wasn't unusual. We've known each other for a long time. She was dancing with me, but she had done so before even when we were around with Ben. My wife has done the same with him. As I said, nothing out of the ordinary happened beforehand. I had one too many drinks and couldn't drive home. So Fran offered to drop me off and I agreed.

I fell asleep during the drive and was in and out of consciousness the rest of the night. The next thing I remember is being in the car in front of Ben's house and I was stumbling inside. I woke up for a split second in Ben's bedroom on his bed. Then again, but longer this time Fran was bouncing on top of me. She was only wearing a bra, but I couldn't feel anything so I was confused. I tried pushing her off, but she pushed me back down, and I went back into consciousness. The next morning I woke up naked in Ben's bed next to his naked wife. I could tell what happened because who wakes up naked to someone without having sex the night before. But it was strange because I didn't remember consenting to anything. I mean she was supposed to take me home. I didn't even know why I was there.

I left while she was asleep. My wife was asleep in our bedroom. I showered, changed, and headed to the office. Fran came into my office, locked the door, and closed the blinds. She sat in the chair in front of my desk and showed me a video of us having intercourse, but you can tell I wasn't all there. She said "Listen here Governor you won't tell anyone about this. Imagine how bad it would look if there was a video going around the town of the governor sleeping with his co-worker, best friend's wife, and wife's best friend. I'll ruin your career." She said I wanted to have sex with her and that was all that happened. But I was raped. I didn't care what she said. I told the cops they arrested her right after I made the call. Then I called Ben, told him everything word for word, and asked if he could tell the kids because I had to tell my wife. Ben believed me he said "I suspected she had a thing for you. And I knew she was cheating on me. I found tapes of her having intercourse with many different men." I told my wife and she was furious she wanted to fight her, but I told her there was no need for that to happen.

We went to trial that same week. She got 15 years in prison. Not only for my rape but turns out she drugged me that night and was planning on raping me. In that plan, she also stated that she was going to ask for ransom money. I wasn't her only victim, she had raped and drugged 7 other people including two minors outside of the town. And she had recorded them all. Some of the other men reported what happened, but she gave them fake names, so none of them knew where they could find her.

The week after is when my wife died from cancer that she didn't tell anyone about, except for her mother. I still don't forgive her mother for not telling me. She moved in the same day she found out to help take care of the girls. I was thankful for that. Ben was there for me when she passed, he also divorced Fran and got back together with his ex who is the twin's mom.

But like I said, I need help with what happened after my wife passed. It involves both my girls. Lani found her body, called 911, and broke the news to her sister, and me. She didn't cry then. She knew that she had to stay strong for her sister and me. Because of this she passed out and fell down the stairs which caused her to go into a coma for a month. She was acting funny on the way home from the hospital and I wanted to talk to her. She told me that her sister had said "I've been waiting a month to tell you this. I wish you didn't wake up from falling down the stairs so that mom could have lived. I will always blame you for her death. I wish you had died instead of her because God made a trade for a soul. He choose to keep you instead of mom"

I can't forgive Scarlett for saying this to her sister. Because of it, Lani went into a depression for 3 months. She got a really bad eating disorder and had to go to rehab for it. She was not in a condition to do sports anymore. And I was afraid I'd lose her like I lost her mom. That was the only other thing I feared., losing Lani. I refused to talk to Scarlett after. I was so upset with her that I yelled at her. I said mean things to her, and she did the same. I disowned her as a daughter for a while. And I wouldn't have had such a hard time forgiving her if she hadn't made Lani think that it was her fault that their mother passed. Lani nearly killed herself because of it. To this day I barely talk to Scarlett and I only surround myself with work and helping Lani with her training. No one knows what Scarlett said to Lani. It was Lani's choice. She said "I don't want people to know, because if they do they will hate her, and she will become depressed as well. I don't want to ruin her life just because of something she said something she doesn't mean. If people ask, just say it's because of mom."

And I listened to her. People all over the town felt bad for Ben and my family. They gave us flowers, presents, and food. Some Moms offered to babysit the kids if we ever needed it. The whole community mourned together. They made a memorial for her in the middle of the town. All newcomers know the story of the Governor and his wife. I just need help, because I can't do this on my own.