Windows to the Mind

Chapter 1

I was laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. There was this void that was shaped a certain way. I heard voices. I couldn't tell if they were talking to me or to each other, but it sounded extremely threathening. Everything they said was inaudible and it was freaking me out. I closed my eyes for a few seconds and they were just, gone. This had been happening repeatedly for the past few months and it was driving me absolutely crazy. I don't know how to explain the feeling. I'm always sort of aware that it's not real, but that doesn't make it any less scary. I felt like I was in danger, and like the void would take over me. Sometimes, when I was feeling lonely it felt like a shadow was hugging me. I never knew what was wrong with me.

I decided that it was finally time to tell my mom. I started second-guessing myself immediately, but it was really time now. If I really wanted an explanation for this, I had to tell someone.

Nervously I opened the door and asked my mom to sit down. I hadn't really prepared what I was going to say, so it took a while for me to find the right words. "I've been experiencing a lot of hallucinations recently and I just don't know what to do." She looked at me in pure disgust. She told me: "Listen I get that you're desperate for attention but this isn't the way to do it." "But I'm serious, I hear voices everywhere and I'm so scared." I told her. She walked away and with a demanding tone in her voice she told me to clean my room. Tears bursted into my eyes and I quickly ran upstairs to hide it. I mean, boys don't cry, right? That's what I was always tought.