More than a bestfriend? (BYLER)

Ill never be number one

Will's POV:

"Can we play DND?" I ask. "Sure" Mike smirked. "You know what? You used to tell me DND was babyish but now that you met this Eddie guy, you play with him!" I tell Mike. "Yeah but I've changed.." He replies and squeezes El's hand. "Do you like Eddie more than me? Your own best friend" I sighed. "No! Of course not! Stop making blind accusations Will! You've been different recently! Why's that?" Mike huffed and I saw him blush?

I wanted to say that I liked him. More than a friend, that's why. But I couldn't risk it. He had El, after all. I walked away and ran to my room. I cant deal with this today. I threw on my headphones and starting playing Conan Gray. The lyrics fit perfectly With me and Mike. They said, "You love her, it's over. Do you even doubt it on your lips? When you say it, say it"

I felt tears coming out of my eyes as I started to cry. I heard someone walking upstairs to my room. I took off the headphones and turned off the music. Lucas and Dustin stood there. "Hey..you okay?" Lucas said and they both sat on my bed. I wiped the tears from my eyes. "Not really if I'm honest" I looked down. "Listen..I know Mike's being an ass but I can talk to him for you" Dustin says. "You don't have to.." I say and look back up. "We know how much he's been hurting you. We're gonna go talk to him, come on" Lucas says and they both leave.

I sit in my room and decide to write. I grabbed a pencil and my notebook for sketches. I ripped out a page. Then I just let my hand write. I ended up writing a love note..for Mike. I'd never give it to him, of course. I opened my notebook and hid the note in a random page.

Mike appeared in my doorway and walked in silently. He sat beside me and looked over. "Will I'm such an asshole best friend. I'm sorry. Truly. I really care about you! Really. You're the number one person I care ab-" I stop him. "-that's a lie. I know El will always be better than me, in your eyes" tears just poured out of my eyes. "That's just not true!" He retorts. "Oh but it is! You always said I was number one..but ever since the first girl EVER gives you  attention, you go for it. God. Yes..El is amazing! But seriously Mike? I've known you since kindergarten. You met the girl only a few years ago!" I yell and put my head down.

"I..." Mike says. "Don't even. You're the reason I cry at night, Mike." I admit. "What? Will! Are you okay?" He looks into my eyes once again. "No. I haven't been for awhile. I've been pretending. Pretending for everyone so no one knows how much I've wanted to die!" I say aggressively as I see everyone staring at me i the doorway. Max and El look over at Mike as I storm into the bathroom and slam the door.