RUN 2 U . KIRISHIMA EIJIROU

♯ 2 am

     IT'S two in the morning. your phone is vibrating insanely. usually you'd be able to ignore it since the lack of sleep you've been receiving since shino was still in his phase of crying every night.

although shindo had been in rehab, he still had the job of a model which meant he was still able to leave the premises and make phone calls. of course, you haven't spoken to him all that much since you gave birth to shino so to see multiple missed calls for him definitely confused you.

all you could wonder is if he broke his sobriety once again and would now have to remain at the facility longer than predicted. your finger dazed over the consistent calling and wondered if you should actually pick up the phone.

with the back of your mind believing that there could have been something seriously wrong, you answer and put the call on speaker.

"hello?" you groan, sitting up from your bed.

"i miss you, i miss shino," he huffs. you wanted to believe that he was drunk but for amount of years you've known shindo, this call was clearly his way of attempting to win you back, "i've been so fucked up ever since the miscarriage and then you got pregnant again and gave me a beautiful baby boy but... i wasn't happy, baby. why wasn't i happy?"

you say nothing in response, looking over at the baby monitor and seeing that shino was still sound asleep.

"i wanted to be happy, i really did," he sighed, "it's all just making me think like what are we doing in life? what are you doing in life? what am i doing?"

"we've been doing this for nine years... how long can we keep going on like this?"

your eyebrows furrowed, ready to question if he was implying that what you were doing in life was wrong.

"what do you mean what am i doing? what are you doing, cheating and drinking all the time?"

shindo scoffed, "what are you doing? you're not any better going out here bringing some other model into our home who didn't leave until late at night?"

you laughed bitterly into the phone. just when you thought this conversation was based on something completely different it was just to poorly disguise shindo's jealousy, "what i'm doing is moving on with my life. finding a better connection with someone other than you isn't the craziest thing in the world and whether i like him or not is between me and him!"

"you like him?!"

you sigh into the phone, "shindo, i gave you my terms and conditions to follow if i were to even consider giving you another chance so until you follow them don't ever call me this late again unless it's life threatening. i have actual responsibilities and a life to handle, goodnight."