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She let go and backed up, sliding down the wall sighing extra loud
"I love you so much and its making this so difficult i dont kno what to do anymore" kaya said
"What's difficult" i asked her leaning against the pillar, ready to listen
"Loving you, i kno i do i just dont want to hurt anybody" kaya sighs
"It's difficult for u to love me?" i scrunch my eyebrows
Well that hurts. Really fucking bad.
"What? Its not, i just-"
"Dont wanna do it. U dont have to love me, i kno its hard. I been dealing wit it my whole fucking life" i shook my head then went upstairs
I put on some of my clothes she somehow still got, i grabbed my Louis V shoes off the top of her closet cs ion kno where nunna the clothes i came here in at.
"I didn't mean it like that" i hear kaya say
"How? I asked u whats difficult and u said loving me" i said looking for my phone "right?"
"Yes" she mumbled "its not hard to love u savion"
"Its good, ion need u ta love me." I lied "u wrong as fuck kalaysia, ill be back for my kids"
"When are u bringing them back" kaya asked
"Whenever u call for em" i said "where my phone"
"Its downstairs, savion u have to understand i didnt mean it like that" kaya said
"Okay i get it, u aint mean it. Ion care no mo" i waved her off, my chest start hurting.
I need my gun
I went downstairs and she followed me, i told LJ and kyrie bye and gave them kisses then grabbed my keys off the table and left.
"Zee please don't be mad at me, i do love u" kaya said grabbing my arm
"U kno how much u mean to me, that shit hurting me bad right now. Let me go, move" i snatched my arm out of her grip while her eyes watered
"Savion im sorry" she said
I got in my car and sped off. I feel like banging my head against a wall right now.
"Piss me the fuck off" i said
I loved her as much as i could, i tried to be calm and change who i was for her. Still to difficult for her. My real mom said the same thing, and poppa mom.
When she say it it hurt worse cs she not jus anybody to me. I put my hands at the bottom of the wheel and sat back, doing 150 down the highway.
My phone rung and it was kaya so ignored it and sped up but she called back. I slowed down some.
"The twins okay"
"Yea, come back zee. U didnt even let me explain" kaya said, i looked down and seen her crying
"The fuck u crying for? Aint shit wrong witchu, life just fucking peachy on yo end" i remarked
