Fixed

Chapter 2

I found myself starring out the window all day. "What are you starring at?" my dad said walking into the living room. "Nothing" I said turning away from the window turning red. I knew who they were. They were vine sensations Nash Grier, Cameron Dallas, Jack Gilinsky and Jack Johnson. I couldn't stop starring at Nash. "Why don't you go introduce yourself to them." My dad said raising his eyebrows. "Yeah no." I said walking away. The day dragged on. I basically sat on the couch and stalked nash and his friends online. Sounds creepy I know. It was about 5:30 and my dad asked "Honey can you take the car and go to the grocery store to get something for dinner?" he was on the phone with a buisness call im guessing. He works from home so hes always on the phone. "Sure what do you want me to get?" I said putting my shoes on. "Whatever you and Caleb want. My wallets on the counter take 30. i have to get back to this phone call." he said running out of the room. "Caleb!" i screamed. "yea?" he asked coming down the stairs. "What do you want for dinner?" i asked him going through my dads wallet and getting out 30. "I dont care." he said. "Thanks caleb" i laughed. "Chicken nuggets and french fries?" he asked. "fine with me bud." i said he ran upstairs, i grabbed the keys off the hook and went outside. Fuck i forgot about the guys. The were all out there shirtless playing basketball accept nash. I looked down to see what i was wearing and i was in jeans and an over sized sweatshirt. so i basically look like shit. All the guys were starring at me. i felt my face turn red and i got into the car. I drove for about 10 minutes to the store. I walked in and walked to the frozen food isle. I turned down the isle and i wasnt paying attention. I bumped into someone. He caught me before i fell. I looked up and saw the crystal blue eyes ive been starring at all day. Was i in Nash Griers arms right now? We jumped back into reality and he helped me stand up. "are you ok?" he asked taking his hands of my arms. "um yeah" i said looking down. if you couldnt tell im shy. "You look familiar?" he said more like a question. "Um my dad lives next door to you." i said awkwardy. "oh yeah i remember i saw you earlier. Whats your name?" he said starring at me. "Um stassie..." i said. i really wanted to get oput of this situation. "oh well ill see you around. hopefully." he whispered the last part. i nodded and waved bye. I walked down the isle and grabbed the chicken nuggets and french fries. I walked in line to check out. " i didnt know i would see you again this soon." he said walking up behind me. "my names nash by the way." i smiled a little bit. "I know." i said. "oh so you do know who i am?" he said. "i do." i smirked. i put my items on the register. "surprised you didnt freak out." he said annoyed. "Yea well im not a fangirl" i said handing money to the cashier. "Clearly" he said winking. I grabbed my badg and walked out of the store. i got in my car and sat there. I watched nash walk out of the store. Hopefully ill never see him again. i thought to myself. I drove home. Luckily i got home and inside before nash did. I walked in and started cooking the chicken and fries. "What did you get babe." my dad asked. "Caleb wanted chicken nuggets and fries." i said. "Thats a surprise" my dad said sarcastically. caleb would live off of chicken nuggets and french fries if he could. "So how is everything." my dad asked putting his cup down. "ugh fine" i said looking down. "Me and your mom talk you know" he said. "Seriously im fine. Everyday she asks me if im depressed and im fine. I keep telling her im fine!" i yelled. "Calm down. Its ok if youre upset. youve gone through alot this year. Its ok to talk to someone." He said sympathetically. I felt tears coming. Little did i know they were streaming down my face. "shh babygirl" my dad said pulling me into a hug. Ive been mad at my dad for such a long time. Hes part of the reason my life has changed so much. Im tired of being mad at him. Im tired of being mad at the world. Maybe i really am depressed. "Daddy i cant." i sniffled. "You cant what honey." he said playing with my hair. "Everyone at school already thinks im depressed and suicidal. If i go and talk to someone it will get worst." i said sobbing. My dad kept rubbing my back and telling me its ok. But its not ok. Im not going to talk to someone. Im not going to convince myself im not depressed. Ive never thought i was depressed until now. Even caleb noticed. Ive always convinced myself that i just liked being alone. I always told myself no matter how hard things get im going to pull through. Im not going to be depressed and suicidal because thats not me. Have i turned into this sad 17 year old girl? Caleb doesnt know who i am anymore, I dont know who i am anymore. I stood there in my dads arms crying. I missed this. I missed being daddys little girl and being in his arms. I was always closer to him than i was my mom. But these past few months ive been so angry at him. I went to having this perfect family to it be broken into two because he decided to fuck his secretary. I finslly stopped crying and pulled away from my dad. He looked like he was about to cry."im ok." i walked away and finished cooking. "Honey we need to fix this." he said sadly. " I dont want therapy or pills." i said. " i know honey but you cant be upset like this." he said looking down. "Im really not that upset. Ive been upset because of you and mom. But im not anymore. I dont need pills to be happy. I dont need therapy.I need to do this by myself. I promise that im not going to hurt myself. Thats not me." i said tryng to hold back tears again. He sighed. "Caleb dinner!" i yelled. He ran down the stairs and grabbed abunch of food. I laughed at the amount of food he took. caleb can make me laugh, he can make me happy. I took a couple of fries and nuggets and sat down and ate them. i walked into my dads office "Im going for a walk" i said. "Ok dont come home too late" he said looking up from his paper work. i was about to leave when he started to speak again "Stas" i walked back into his office."yeah?" i asked. "I love you" he choked. "I love you to dad" i smiled. I walked outside and saw the crystal blue eyes that i got lost in at the store.