When we were 18

I pushed myself too much, I was so stupid

Charlie's POV:

I woke up bright and early this morning I made my way into the bathroom and made myself throw up everything that I'd eaten yesterday evening after I'd done that I felt really dizzy but I pushed it aside and had a quick shower before getting dressed into my school uniform I only had three lesson's this morning and then the whole afternoon was taken up with the running Championships. I grabbed my clean running kit from my wardrobe and put it into my sports bag I put my spikes and running trainers into the bag also as I was running the relay race as-well which was on the concrete track, I made my way downstairs to the kitchen and grabbed myself my packed lunch from the fridge which Niall must have made me last night I put it into my backpack and then made myself some breakfast. 

As I sat and ate my breakfast Zayn walked in yawning he walked over to the kettle and said 'Morning Charlie I can give you a lift to school on my way to the gym, just let me take Liam his tea and get dressed and I'll be right with you' I smiled at Zayn and said 'Thank you I appreciate it Zayn' Zayn ruffled my hair as he walked out of the kitchen once he was upstairs I chucked the rest of my cereal in the bin and put the bowl and spoon in the dishwasher before heading back upstairs to finish getting ready by the time I was finished Zayn was ready to take me to school. 

As we drove down the hill away from the house Zayn said 'I'm sorry about last night Liam doesn't normally get annoyed like that, I hope he didn't upset you Charlie' I finished typing a message to Nick before looking at Zayn and saying 'It's okay Zayn. And no he didn't upset me I think I was just over tired', Zayn pulled up outside the school gates and said 'Yeah I think that's only natural you've had a lot happen to you recently, but you know we're all here for you Charlie'. I leaned in and hugged Zayn before saying 'Thank you Zayn it means a lot' Zayn ruffled my hair again and said 'Your welcome Charlie. Now what time do me and the boys need to be here to watch you running' I smiled and said 'Oh um my first race is at half three' Zayn nodded before saying 'Okay me and the boys will be there cheering you on'. 

After Zayn had dropped me off I met up with Nick by the front entrance and we walked to our form room, as we sat waiting for the teacher to arrive Nick turned to look at me and said 'How are you feeling about the race today' I turned to look at Nick and replied 'The nerves started to kick in this morning, I know I'm going to be up against Ben and he's really fast'. Nick took my left hand and said 'Charlie there's no way Ben will beat you, your quicker than him. And I have something for you'. 

Nick handed me a box and inside was a Four leaf clover charm I hugged Nick before kissing him passionately on the lips it became more and more heated and then I heard Tao say 'Charlie you do realise that the bell for 1st Period rang about 10 seconds ago and everyone has left'. Myself and Nick looked at each-other and both laughed we'd been so busy kissing each-other that we hadn't realised that registration was over, we both stood up in unison and grabbed our bags as we left our form room, Nick pointed down the stairs and said 'I'm heading this way to Science' I nodded and said 'I'll see you at break time I'm heading this way with Tao we've got history and then I've got Science'. 

Zayn's POV:

On the drive home I couldn't stop thinking about Charlie on the outside he seemed okay but none of us could tell what was going on inside, once I got home I went through to the kitchen Liam was busy making himself a Milkshake he looked over at me and said 'Hey Zayn I've just made a Strawberry Milkshake would you like some' I nodded and he poured me a glass I sat down at the table and said 'I'm worried about Charlie, I don't know for sure but I think he might have an eating disorder I just see him exhibiting some of the behaviour I did when I was struggling with my eating'.