Radheshyam's journey

Radha's thoughts

Krishna went towards Radha and pulled her into a passionate kiss shocking Radha.

They kissed for a while and then Krishna pulled Radha into his embrace taking in her scent and relaxing his unsteady heart. Both of them remained in that position for quite a while... 

Then, suddenly, the angry shouts of Kalindi and Nagnajiti were heard... Satyabhama was trying to keep them away but poor her had no luck on her side and thus was defeated by the two, disturbing Radhakrishna'a alone time. 

Satyabhama was disappointed in herself... She saw Radha getting cussed over by both and Krishna then defending Radha and ordering both wives of his to go away...

She was too disappointed to even look into her reflection... She couldn't also complete a simple job. She started self-pitying herself... 

Krishna understood Satyabhama's feelings but at that moment he couldn't do anything but stood there helplessly...

Radha too understood her but couldn't do anything too...

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It was nighttime, Radha had been locked up in a room with no one to talk to and dwelling on her thoughts... She thought of her life recently, it was amusing how fast her life changed suddenly...

She decided it was time she went to Satyabhama... She covered herself in black clothes and went to Satya, but reaching what she heard made her happy as well as sad...

She saw both Krishna and Satya making out, unknown of the world outside, she watched them, unknowingly a sad smile curled on her lips, she understood... Krishna was... doing his duties quite.. nicely.. and.. he seemed.. happy in life, he was following his duties, he had a family, he was a father, so she let him be... 

Even after their jealousy talk in Hastinapur... she couldn't help, but her heart felt heavy...

Sighing deeply, she walked to the garden, to a place she hoped was unknown to everyone, also to Krishna... She felt burdened by these feelings of jealousy.. it was selfish and she was so sure that she felt bad.. and.. she was afraid.. she would do something bad and then.. disappoint everyone around her and harm people....

She was afraid of herself.. 

The train of self pitying continued...

Then she sat and looked at the sky thinking what her life was like, she was a beautiful woman but that woman was impure, was raped, didn't have a good family background, and was despised by all...

She, her life wasn't all charming.... she can't hope for Krishna to become all of hers, even if she wanted him to...

She wanted to be like before, a smiling innocent girl who knew her parents were sweet loving ones, truthful and not the ones she had seen at that time... she wanted to play with her sakhis, and do raas with Krishna like before but...

she...

the situations have changed, the world has changed and maybe, just maybe she is just an invisible person in this world now, an invisible fog that travels and sees through people but people can't catch it...

Maybe everyone had forgotten her, except Krishna, maybe everyone had thought that she was dead, except Krishna...

But Krishna, he kept hope...

but...

Krishna... 

She didn't deserve him.. She didn't deserve his kindness, his love, his friendship.. She, an impure and disowned girl didn't deserve krishna.. Krishna deserved better..

Also, Krishna..

he had also changed... he no longer was the cowherd's boy whom she knew, he was the king of a whole huge empire which meant that he had a lot of wives, had his own needs, and a lot of stress on him... 

maybe...

just maybe...

she was becoming a burden on him and his whole family. because of her, everyone is now having negative emotions...

Unknowingly thinking of the above things, Radha began crying, she desperately wanted to go back in time but couldn't... she was so selfish she thought to herself...

Laughing to herself with a sad smile, taking out her bansuri, she played a low soft, and sad tune that explained her feelings towards her current state...

Not wanting to pity herself anymore, she stood up after playing her bansuri and went to her Kaksha and slept away her wishes as she knew, even if she wanted to do many things, she couldn't...

She could only live her best now...

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Krishna and Satyabhama spent the night together... Satya wanted Krishna to go after Radha but he didn't cuz he knew Radha wanted some alone time and Satya, Satya wanted someone by her side...

He pulled Satya into a kiss, the kiss was hot and full of challenging, both fighting for their own dominance and victory..

The passion of the other night multiplied in bounds..

Losimg their senses into one another, both husband wife spent the night together...

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Both the incidents happened under the moonlight, the moon god was unhappy with the doings of destiny, 

He wanted Devi Radha to be happy but after hearing her true thoughts about herself he was greatly unhappy. He went to Mata Aditi wanting to know what was happening...

Moon- Mate, Ye kya ho rha hai? Devi radha ko ye sab kya sehna pad rha.. aur shri krishna.. wo... wo...

Aditi- Putra, chinta mat karo, jald hi sab thik ho jayega. Tum bas samay ka khel dekho, bas savra rakho, kyunki ab jo hone wala hai woh bahut anokha hoga aur yugon yugon tak do premi ke sambandh ko darshayega...

Moon- Par Kaise mata?

Aditi- Bas dekhte jao putra, bas... dekhte jao...

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