If you wake up one day and get a call that I'm gone.
Don't blame yourself for I was the foolish one.
Pain keeps drenching down on me.
I hide so much, so you will not see.
The fear that I have keeps me from going.
I feel like I'm letting you down, without even knowing.
The smiles that I brought seem to slowly fade away.
You see this is the reason why I can't stay.
I love you all with every inch of my heart.
I only wish I could stop falling apart.
The beauty you bring keeps me with glee.
But I feel so dark, I'd lost my key.
The doorway to heaven seems so close.
Just a few more steps and I'll be gone from my post.
To say the least this isn't my goodbye.
I can't help but see the pain in your eyes.
I hold your hand close to my heart.
So you hear the heartbeat of it, no longer falling apart.
I stare deeply into your precious eyes.
I've made my decision, I don't want to die.
