m.s | a true friendship ⚠️TW

7. Now You Know (p2)

Narrator POV: 

it had been three hours since Matt left Sarah's house. Matt had been cleaning his room, and Sarah had been stressing about the fact that nick and Chris would see the skin on her thighs, and started planning on telling nick and Chris about her home life. she planned it out fact by fact.

- dad has had depression his whole life

- aunt and cousin both committed suicide 1 day apart

- dads sister went into rehab - alcoholic

- dad has been emotionally abusive Sarah's whole life.

- sister got bullied and started self harm 

- sister went to the hospital twice, 2 months and 8 months - almost a year

- started self harm when sister was gone

- has gotten bullied in school

- parents got divorced

- mom moved to Boston for fresh start

Matts POV:

I told nick and Chris that Sarah would come over. they were both happy she decided to come, and so was i. but i know it would be hard for her, knowing she's afraid to show them her thighs.

i heard a knock on the door and walked to it. i greeted Sarah with a "hey" and a smile and let her inside. "hi" she replied with a smile too. she was wearing leggings, as expected, i didn't think she would want to walk out the door in shorts with her mom there. My mom isn't here either, she went away with our dad for a couple days. "Sarahhhhh!!" Chris came out of nowhere and gave her a hug. "it's only been 24 hours Chris" she said laughing. "i know but we love you." he said with a silly smile. "Sarah??" nick said walking to the door. "Sarah!!" he said also giving me a big hug. "heyyyy nick" Sarah said excitedly. 

Sarah took a big breath preparing for what she was going to say. when she exhaled, her breath shook, revealing she was really nervous. "before we swim... can i talk to you guys?" she asked us. "yeah of course" i said looking at nick and Chris. "okay" she said walking into the kitchen. she sat down on an island stool as i sat next to her and nick and Chris stood on the other side of the island. she began to talk.

"so, my mom and dads mothers both died when they were really young, and my dad has had depression his whole life. my dad had five siblings, until when i was nine. my aunt, his sister, killed herself the day after my cousin, her son, killed himself. a year or so after they passed my other aunt went into rehab because she almost died, she was an alcoholic. she is doing better now thank god. but other than that, my dad has been emotionally abusive my whole life. my sister started middle school and she was getting bullied a lot. thats when she..." 

she paused when her voice broke, and shortly closed her eyes. "thats when she stated cutting, and burning herself..." tears formed in her eyes. i grabbed her hand under the island where nick and Chris couldn't see and interlocked our fingers.

she took a deep, shaky breath as tears started falling down her cheeks. the quiet words she spoke hurt.

"when my parents found out, they sent her to a hospital. she was gone for two months, and she came home. but that night, i heard her talking to my mom in another room. i heard her say, 'i told them that i am going to kill myself. and what scares me is i'm creative.' after their conversation my mom decided it would be better if she went away again." i saw her tears multiplied and i squeezed her hand, giving her support. "she left for eight more months. i saw my once, in the span of ten months. and it's not like we could visit her, i was never really sure why but we couldn't."