impression

electricity

(javi)

i've enjoyed finn being here a lot. we've had really good days out at the club and all, he's such a lightweight. we are going out again tonight with a few of my friends, danny, chris and will to a nightclub up north, we couldn't even go downtown anymore, he feels insecure around my friends i can tell, but they love him.

my dad drops us off into the city and we meet up with everyone, i have to use my fake ID which some clubs don't let me in for but eventually we find one and they do. surprisingly, first try we all get let in. i'm instantly hit by all the throbbing lights and echoing noise. i need to be drunk to enjoy this.

we all immediately walk up to the bar and i order us all 2 shots each. finn turns his face up at each shot and struggles to finish his second. i snatch it off him and finish the rest before dragging him into the crowd. danny said he bought some pills for us tonight, i'm not sure how finn will react to that though. danny offers finn one and finn shoots me a look of approval. i lean over and talk loudly into his ear over the music that i didn't care. we all walk towards the bathroom and take a pill each. finns face drops once he sees the bag the pills are in but he tries to hide it. i think they are sold by his old gang.

my friends leave and we're left alone in the bathroom. i could tell he was starting to panic because he was starting to breathe faster and bite the side of his finger, which i noticed he does when he's stressed. i grabbed his hand and he slightly jumped and i asked was he okay. "i'm fine javi, it just reminded me i could see them at any time" he said with worry. i couldn't do much but comfort him and tell him i'd be there if anything happened. i noticed his pupils had started to get larger and we both hurried over to the mirror to see. we laughed and then walked out into the packed crowd.

i could feel everything change. the music became a higher pitch, the lights were brighter, everything was more saturated and my heart was racing. i felt so good. i looked over at finn and was smiling and dancing. my friends were all laughing at each other just across from us. i grabbed finns hand and started dancing with him. we were both trapped in a state of euphoria. time was skipping. i was in the crowd, then the bathroom, then outside, then my dads car, then my house and then my room. everything was so much more colourful and bright. finn was memorised by the shiny album covers. he stood up and came closer to me. we both lay down on my bed looking at the turning ceiling above us. i turned to face him. he did the same. my heart was fluttering and my mind only had one thought. do it.