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later

(finn)

a month or so had passed since javi and his family let me stay. i'd unpacked my bag and javi had emptied out one of his dresser drawers for me. i became closer with his dad, his name was mateo but told me to call him matt and i began to understand why javi loved him so much. he was like a father figure id never had. i had met his sister brooke too and had a few funny conversations together, she liked to embarrass javi but it was cute, javi always blushed and hid his face. i loved it here, except for his uncle, roman, he was an asshole. he always side-eyed me anytime we were in the same room and talked under his breath anytime i was there. javis uncle lived with them because he lost out on all his money in some fake investment. asshole. matt also offered me a job at one of his business , it wasn't nothing serious or major and i would've done it for free as a thank you for letting me stay but he insisted on paying me. he also pays me way too much. he even offered to pay for a driving license for me, i had to practically beg him to let me save for one with the money he was giving me from the job.

there was a constant sexual tension between me and javi now, something i've never felt before. i never thought i was attracted to men or whatever i mean i've had a few slight crushes but nothing too serious. a few times we'd move so close and almost kiss and at night we'd always end up right beside one and another. i'm waiting for the right moment to kiss him and i think he is too. i don't want it to ruin anything though.

my phone is also constantly getting called by van, as well as threatening messages. i've had to completely avoid downtown, they'd kill me if they knew i was here. i was safe here though. they'd never touch or even come near north end.

javi also starts back to college soon too, it's only like a 20 minute drive north so it's not too far. he does a psychology course and is on the first football team at his uni, it's been fun to play football with him in his garden too since i used to play. it's so nostalgic and he's weirdly good. it will be good to work more when he's at university. he also said he'd introduce me to his university friends. i'm not sure how i feel about that they'll probably think badly of me.

i've never felt happier. i'm glad to be out of the whole gang situation. my life is almost on track.