Mine

Different Worlds

ONIKA TANYA

I'm holding a baby, possibly the most precious, tiny baby ever. The baby was light, and their eyes were light brown just like their hair. They flashed me a gummy smile as I traced my finger over their stomach. I heard the sound of a door opening I look up from the baby and see Beyoncé, she'd just come back from work. Dinners were not ready the house wasn't clean, but I wasn't scared, she walked up to me and kissed my head before leaning down and kissing the baby. She smiled at me and said something, I could understand her. She was muffled. She walked away and made a phone call after her call she walked into a different room she came back in pajamas with a baby bottle in hand. I gave her the baby and she fed them and burped them, she changed them making sure she was gentle with all of her touches. She carried the baby away, and once came back she sat on the couch and we snuggled into each other, enjoying each other's warmth and embrace while looking into each other's eyes. She smelled so good like vanilla.

Then a loud car horn sounded followed by lots of cursing suddenly my head started stirring and the dinner I ate the previous night was trying to make a second appearance. I groaned as I realized it was my mind playing tricks on me, showing me an alternate reality in which everything turned out okay, but I'm still in New York, still pregnant, and there's still Beyoncé. The only thing that was real was the sickness that I felt traveling up my pipes. I groaned as I stood from my "bed" and slowly walked to my bathroom, it was fairly nice, the tiles were clean and the bathtub and shower were separate, I got my money's worth. I kneeled with my head hovering over the toilet, this simple task made my headache worse.

BEYONCÉ GISELLE

I didn't sleep, last night was one of the worse nights, I'd don't really sleep at night anymore I'll just take naps during the daytime. I lay in my bed on Onika's side smelling her pillow, I finally stood and went into the bathroom I didn't look in the mirror I walked straight into the shower. I had on the clothes that I was wearing all day yesterday, I turned the water on the hot water slightly burned my skin but it was soothing, my clothes were starting to get heavy but that's okay. I decided to start removing my clothing finally, I threw them out of the shower, not really caring about the puddle it would make. I used her soap and one of her pink wash towels, I just wanted to be closer to her. I'd do anything to be with her, but I can't. She doesn't want me with her.

Once I was done showering I brushed my teeth with her toothbrush and I didn't bother doing my hair I was gonna stay home. I put on the pink drawers that she bought me, paired with her oversized playboy hoodie. I walked into the kitchen and saw that I actually managed to put the leftovers away, I wasn't in the mood to eat. I brought the food out and I couldn't even bring myself to eat it, almost like I didn't deserve it. Almost like if I eat now there wouldn't be enough for her if she came back later. I skipped breakfast.

I sat on the couch and watched all her favorite shows, I even watched Scary Movie, the jokes weren't funny to me. I always had the most fun watching her laugh at it. I decided to call Robyn one last time, she hasn't blocked me yet, and she and Onika were close even before I ruined it maybe she knows where she is. The line rang about one hundred times. I was ready to get her voicemail again which she recorded when Onika was there because I can hear her talking about Chanel in the background. That's one of the reasons I keep calling her. Also the thought of her answering, maybe she'll tell me we're Onika is.

What.

You answered! H-hi I know y-you and Onika are friends are you with her? C-can I talk to her?

No, I'm not with her even if I was you couldn't talk to her.

R-Robyn please don't fuck with me, I need to talk to her can you tell me where she is, please?