The Truth Untold

"The Newman Case"

I say, "Just your presence alone gives me comfort." However, that is not the case.

Throughout my life, I have stood by that code to cope with neglect. I have been neglected most of my life. 

Those that I've loved have been stand-ins in my nonexistent territory. I'm a third-world country with puppet soldiers with no sense of direction in their worthless lives. Their lives became worthless the moment they signed their rights to false riches.

That's where I come in.

I put false boundaries around myself to seem secure in my skin. I create this perception that I am "complete" in life when in reality, I am confused.

With puppet soldiers as my security, they quickly allow anyone bribing them to enter my country. It doesn't matter if I triple their salary they will always betray me and allow others to spread their dirty seeds to my consciousness. 

I ache in my bed. No comfort in my bed. I wonder, the moment I bring someone to lay down with me in my bed will they help diminish my discomfort?

The answer to that question was answered years ago.

Just like the problem with my "loyal" soldiers. The solution is to clean everything and leave no stains, but the disinfection process will take time. Unfortunately, I'm very selective with my patience in life. But not very selective enough, it seems.

I value my efforts to keep going despite setbacks with my democratic decisions to please my country. However, the longer I'm in the office, the more I realize how selfish I can be for self-pleasure. 

I am tethered to my past and need to break the bond with my hands.