Love Justice (Love Series #1)

04

"What happend?" Natakot ako bigla ng marinig 'ko ang boses ng mga kasama 'ko.

"No, just go back there and drink! Were fine here, were just talking." He cover me with his body. Napa kapit na lang ako sa damit nya hindi alam ang gagawin, i almost touch his chest and leaned to it but he touched my head and pulled me close to him.

"It's okay.. I'm here." He caressed my hair calming me down. "Shh it's okay.. it's okay." Paulit ulit nya 'yon sinabi tumitingin sa likod nya 'kong may tao.

Sinabi 'ko sa kanya na ayos na ako at bumalik na sya doon mukang tinanong pa sya 'kong anong nanyari pero umiling lang sya at binago ang topic nila. Mukang nakalimutan na nga nila ng tuluyan ang bagay na 'yon. Nag paalam ako sa kanila na matutulog na ako at mag papahinga.

"It's okay! I'm going to clean your condo, you don't have to worry just sleep and rest!" Sigaw ni Zahra bago ako maka pasok sa kwarto 'ko ngitian 'ko na lang sya bago mag paalam ulit. Automatic na na wala ang ngiti sa labi 'ko na mag isa na lang ako napa sandal ako sa pintuan at tinakpan ang muka 'ko.

"What now... What now.." I Whispered. "Please... I don't want to remember that.. again.. go away.. please.." i cover my mouth.

"Please go away! My... My dad is busy so we can't play here." I told my playmates. They're looked sad but i promise that I'm going to play next time with them but not in my.. not my dad house.

"Why are you so late?! Do you even want to go home?!" I close my eyes when dad starting to yelled at me. He scolding me now... I used to it but it's still scary.

"I'm with my friends-" I stopped when he throws the lamp. I'm trembling.. I'm scared. I want to call my mom but i remember that.. she's not home. "I'm sorry.." I said that again and again until he left the room. I flinched in shock when he slammed the door so hard.

"I'm sorry.."

"You're fucking like your mom! I don't want to see you get out of here!" I'm just about to will show the letter I made for him because it's father's day. But he didn't seem to be in the mood so I just went out there.

"I'm sorry..." I'm being scolded now because I got something wrong on my test. I just thought that he just wanted me to be good and should be the top. it's just one mistake... I do better next time.

I always say sorry to him even if sometimes I don't do anything to him. I'm just wondering if what he did to me is still normal. The beatings, pain, wounds, anger, screams. Is that how a parent should treat a child? It's scary. I don't want to be a parent anymore. I remember what my teacher said that one day we will have a family, I was scared.

"Dad... I can't.. stand up, i want to rest." Sinubukan 'kong ipaliwanag ulit na hindi 'ko na kayang tumayo pa dahil masakit na ang buong katawan 'ko dahil sa palo na ginawa nya.

"What the fuck are you doing to my child?!" I heard mommy's voice so i try to stand up and  stop her, she might hurt too!

"Mom! Mommy no... I'm fine.. We're fine.." i looked at dad with so much fear. "I'm going to school now mom." Buti naka suot na ako.

I was wearing a jacket to cover my wound... I don't want them to think bad about dad, he's just doing that for me. When i got home I'm super exhausted and want to sleep, i saw mom talking to dad.. is she.. screaming? I immediately ran and hugged mommy's leg to stop her.