Him.

Uhm.. Why the fuck??

Once again i will be explaining every detail of this fucked up thing I'm calling a relationship to you lovely people, trust me it gets better than it is right now.. Mmkay so where was I? Oh forgetting him.

5/3/15 12:31 am

Whallllleee🐳🐳 it had been about a week after the whole hickey incident and I haven't heard from him,which I guess you could say was pretty good considering the fact that I was trying to forget him right?...Right. See the little bit of hesitation there? Yeaa that's cause I didn't want to forget him. I wanted so badly to just text him and vent to him about how shitty my day or days have been, tell him everything new I learned just so his smart ass could tell me he already knew that, I just wanted him to talk to me even if it was to call me the biggest bitch in the world I didn't even care at that point, I just wanted my best friend... I know that now .. but then I didnt. I was so infuriated with him, I wanted to hate him so much but I just couldn't. I wanted to hate him for making me fall so fucking hard, and not catching me. when I broke up with him I wanted so badly for him to tell me no, that we are in this together and he isn't going anywhere....but obviously that didn't happen. Most of all I wanted to hate him for fucking me over. He told me that he did not still have feelings for his ex... UHMM.. THEN WHY THE FUCK DID GO BACK TO HER 3 FUCKING DAYS LATER!!?!?? HMM!??? Jackass .. ugh I just wanted to hate him. And for a little I thought I did, yea I still thought about him and occasionally wished that I never broke up with him, but then something happened that made me feel... in control and a little happy I guess you could say.

Soo after a very shitty and long day at hell, oh my apologies, school , my madre picked me up. She had to go to the store so we ended up going to a redners down the street and I stayed in the car while she went in to grab a few things. I'm on my phone (of course, when aren't I) when I get a kik message from him. it said new message from **-**-**. I deleted his kik so I wouldn't be tempted to try and talk to him so all that popped up was the kik name and it saying new message. I opened it and it said hey can I talk to you? I almost fought and I need someone to talk to. Biiitttttcchh you DO NOT KNOW how fucking hype I got in the passenger seat of that mother fucker. I was hopping around and shit, screaming loud... as shit! I was just goin nuts cause it made me feel in control... like he's thinking about me and it made me happy but also made me mad cause like why the fuck are you thinking of me? Not saying I don't like it but still... it's a girl thing, hard to explain. Anyways of course I said yea he could, but not before sending a snapchat to my friend flipping out about it. I remember taking the video and repeating what he texted me followed with me screaming "WHY THE FUCK DONT YOU TALK TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND ABOUT IT THEN YA DUMB BITCH!?" After pulling it together he sent me a huge paragraph talking about how he almost fought some guy for talking shit and blah blah blah, so on and so forth. I'm reading it and I'm just like... shit bitch you is fine, like it wasn't that necessary. I told him to forget the whole thing, it was good that he didn't fight and it wasn't necessary. He said thank you and I left him on read, like what the fuck else am I supposed to say. He then continued to try and continue the conversation asking me what I'm doing.... I'm mindin my own fucking buissness bitch. I of course didn't say that but I replied very gingerly and talked calmly. the conversation ended quickly tho with me coming up with an excuse as to why I couldn't keep talking. He understood and left it at that.

So why was this important to this whole fucked up story? Because listen here bitchachos ... this is not the last time her tried to talk to me .. definitely not the last ...

But don't get shit twisted I deleted his shit as soon as the conversation was over... I promise