"Obey Me! x Male Reader"

Anxiety - Reader x Bottom Leviathan

Leviathan x (Y/N)

TLDR: Two anxious people date, it's hard. Also the sex scene is 1000 words long-
(Warning: Author kun desperately tries to stop using pronouns to start every sentence)
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Levi and I started dating almost 6 months ago, he's tried to show affection on many occasions, but almost always ended up a flustered mess who couldn't speak properly. In fact, when I watched Levi play dating sims on our game nights, I couldn't help but feel a little jealous. He was able to flirt with them so effortlessly, whilst it seemed he was afraid of me. It's quite idiotic to be jealous of a video game, but something inside me hurt with every smile and chuckle he gave the anime chick he was going for.
Levi wasn't used to receiving affection from me either. Each time I tried, it looked like he was about to have a heart attack. His face would turn bright red and he'd run away.

I kinda just accepted that maybe, just maybe, he didn't like me and was confused with his emotions. He probably just wanted to experience love irl and was too anxious to tell me.
I truly started to believe that.
Even when Mammon would complain to me constantly about how Levi wouldn't stop talking about me and anime, I kinda just blocked it out, stuck in my views.

That was until I truly got to face this problem head on, and that theory was broken in a matter of seconds.

It was game night, like we did every Friday, and Levi was playing his video game on the couch far away from me. Okay, I'm exaggerating a little, he was at one end of the couch and I was at the other.
I was scared of making him anxious again while he played something he enjoyed so I stayed away.
Scrolling on my phone, texting some people, watching videos, ect. I tried my best to not make him anxious or uncomfortable. But out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that Levi kept looking at me, taking subtle glances and seeming frustrated.

He seemed to be upset at me, I was confused, I hadn't done anything. I didn't try and cuddle him, but I wasn't ignoring him. I looked over my phone, Levi was squeezing his controller so hard that I thought it would break. Suddenly, almost as if against my will, I spoke; "Are you alright, Levi?"
Levi grit his teeth, and didn't acknowledge what I said.
I sat up, "What's wrong?" I said, confusion filling my voice.

He put his controller down, almost slamming it, he huffed and slouched down, pouting. "What's wrong with you?!" His eyebrows scrunched, and he looked more annoyed than I've ever seen him before. "Do you not wanna date me anymore?"
I was shocked, "What are you talking about?!" I said, this whole time I did everything I could to make sure he didn't break up with me. "Lately, you've been avoiding touching me, getting close to me, and you don't show me affection at all!" His eyes were welling up with tears, "I knew you didn't like me! I'm just some weird otaku, you probably like someone else like Asmo!"

I was confused, my head shook, "What?! What are you talking about?! Of course I like you!" I said desperately. He rubbed his eyes, trying to prevent tears from falling. "I knew you'd never actually love me, you probably just feel sorry for me!" Even with all the countermeasures trying to prevent his tears, they started to fall like a water fountain. I stood up, this was really bad. I went toward him, pulling him into a hug. I wrapped my arms around him and sat on his lap, wrapping my legs around him too. I squeezed him really hard, I wanted him to stop crying, I didn't know what to do. "I don't feel sorry for you, I swear, I just didn't want you to feel uncomfortable."

He hicced through his tears, "Why hic would I feel hic uncomfortable?!" He buried his face into my neck. His muffled voice strained, "I just hic wanted you to love me, I hic would never feel uncomfortable hic with you." His arms wrapped around me.
I rubbed his hair, "I.. I thought you were uncomfortable because whenever I would show you affection you would run away or get upset.."
He dug his fingers into my shirt, "I hic love you so much, hic I didn't know what to do. I never loved anyone as much as you."
I blushed, digging my face into the crook of his neck. "I'm sorry, Levi.. I love you so much, I didn't want you to realize you don't want to date me anymore because I make you anxious and uncomfortable.." It was kind of a lie, but what Levi didn't know wouldn't hurt him.