the cause of my euphoria | jk x reader

Chapter 9: The confession

Your P.O.V

Jungkook and I sat against the wall listening to music. It seemed to have bought us closer. I was still pretty shaken up from the fan swarm. I didn't realise some army's go out their to take pictures and videos of them. Its sad. My thoughts were cut off as the music was paused.

"I'm sorry for putting you through that, Y/N" Jungkook apologized. I looked at him and shook my head "You dont need to apologize kookie" I said looking down at the floor "It's not your fault fans track you down"

He sighed. I looked at him with concern.

"It is my fault! I wanted to protect you from the spotlight but army's have probably already posted those pictures" Jungkook said.

I stared at him he cares that much?.. I didn't know what to say.

"Paparazzi are lethal when it comes to seeing idols with girls they start making up rumours and writing fucked up news stories" Jungkook said.

"But can't you like sue them" I asked.

"Unfortunately not its not upto to us to sue them. Its hybes" He said.

You both sat in silence for a moment.

"I'm sorry I'm ruining the mood" Jungkook mumbled.

"No, no you're not ruining the mood" I shook my head at him.

"You got good taste in shoes by the way, I'm sorry I didn't get to take you to that restaurant" Jungkook apologized.

Jungkook had apologized alot today.

"It's totally okay! I'll eat something once I get home" I told him. He then pulled $30 out of his pocket

"Since I won't be needing American money anymore. I want you to have this so you can get yourself something" He said and opened my hand and placed money in it.

It made me sad to think he was going home early in the morning. I was also sad about not seeing the others.

Jungkooks P.O.V

I had to confess to her quickly before the sun goes down. I shifted in my seating position and turned my whole body so its facing her.

She looked at me with a confused expression on her face. It made me laugh slightly.

"So before I start" I said and cleared his throat "I dont want what I'm about to say to change your perspective of me"

She nodded as her eyes widened.

"This will make alot of armies mad and upset as the guys don't really know, only hobi does" I continued. My hands start to sweat as nerves start to kick in.

She looked at me.

"Kookie whatever it is i'm always here for you and nothing will change what I think about you" She told me.

"I dont want our friendship or whatever we have to go to shit because of this" I breathed deeply and closed my eyes.

"What do you mean by whatever we have?" She asked. I opened my eyes and felt a lump in my throat.

"What I mean is that ever since we met 4 or 5 days ago. I felt some sorta spark" I was slowly getting to what I wanted to say.

"What sorta spark?" She said while scooting closer to me. I have to admit I got butterflies from that.

"A spark. you know like when people start having feelings for eachother" I said looking at her.

"B-but kookie I'm an army" She said.

"I don't care. I can fall in love with who I want and that person is you but theres a problem Jimin likes you too" I say.

I cant believe I'm doing this.

I grabbed her small hand gently and held it. I rubbed my thumb over the back of her hand. She didn't pull her hand away.

What if she doesnt feel the same?

She stared at me with tears filling her eyes.

"Kookie. I like you too but lets not rush into a relationship just yet " I heard her say and I nodded.

It was getting dark so I walked her home and she pecked my cheek. I placed my hand to where her lips once were.

I then made my way back to the hotel. I just knew something was going to happen as soon as I got home.

Jimins P.O.V

Jungkook hadn't been here since 12:00pm and I was extremely upset with him. Yes I saw the pictures of them together. It broke me in two. I sat in the hotel lounge waiting for him. I had my arms crossed. Thats when I saw him walk through the doors.

"Did you have fun with your girlfriend?" I asked. He looked at me and he looked scared.

"What?" He asked and I let out a fake laugh and then turned my phone around to show him the pictures "You dont think I see this shit" I shouted slightly at him.

"Jimin-" He said calmy.

"Don't Jimin me. Every member has seen the way I've looked at Y/N since the day we met her but you never did or did you and wanted to hurt me on purpose?" I said as anger began to build up inside me.

Jungkook stood with his mouth open to talk when hobi came running in.

"Guys don't fall out over this. It could just be a friendly hang out" Hobi suggested.

I shook my head "So friendly that they held hands and met by themselves doesn't seem very friendly to me" I said scrolling through the pictures and showing Jungkook the one that really pissed me off.

"You know what Jimin, if you bothered getting close to Y/N you would have no reason to get jealous yet you never even put in the effort" Jungkook raised his voice.

My facial expressions began to soften realizing I didnt even bother with her. I didn't message her or ask to hang out. I was too busy being selfish. I never knew Jungkook to raise his voice at me or any member and then he walked off.

I sighed. I really fucked up. I probably lost Jungkook now. Hobi looked at me disappointed.

"You weren't suppose to find out but I'm guessing you and the others all listened in on mine and Jungkooks private conversation" Hobi said and sat down next to me.

"I'm sorry, Hobi" I apologized.

"Its okay Jimin but the person you should be apolozing too is Jungkook. Hes right if you got close enough with Y/N then you could of had what they had" Hobi told me.

I then nodded and we agreed to go to our rooms after that. We had to be up early. I couldn't sleep.