LEGENDARIUM|| 𝗖𝗢𝗠𝗣𝗟𝗘𝗧𝗘𝗗|| #Wattys2022

Ika-dalawampu't Apat na Kabanata

These feelings are overwhelming.

It's obvious that he wants me back, he wants us back together like we used to.

But he knows we can't go back to the way we were. A lot of people are now endangered. All because of him? And shouldn't I hate him?

'Hate only has a little bit of silver lining for it to become love,' said the voice inside my head.

Why am I considering it? Why am I planning to be with him? Why am I thinking like this with him? Why am I suddenly wanting to be his? Again? How can I be with him when I know he hurt my people? How can I be with him when—

'You know for a fact that Envy still loves you, and you know for a fact that you love him as much,' said the voice once more. I couldn't help but to sigh as the night breeze touched my damp skin.

Nakatayo sa terrace ng aking silid, ako'y nakaharap sa napakagandang tanawin ng kanyang hardin. The lavender field was there in the shape that we have always loved. I know for a fact that when we first met, he was dull as a rock. I don't know why he suddenly liked Lavender flowers, but I was glad to know that he did. Each day with him in the past when we were together, his eyes shine brighter than the other.

Yet his eyes now, it was dead and lonely. Just the same as how it was before 'we' happened.

How the fuck can I do this? The fucking enemy is the man I fucking fume for killing my people. He's the son of the devil that violated my sister. I should hate his whole soul. He destroyed my people. Yet—

No, I won't say it. The more that I won't say it, the more I'll realize that I don't need or want him anymore. All I am here for is to trick him. Yes, to trick him and fall in love with me once more. Then, I get to control him.

Just like what I learned from my sister. I will fucking use him for the betterment of my people, and break him on the next. I do not need him, nor will I have any sympathy for him having sad eyes. His eyes that was once full of color, his face that was once always smiled, he who once fell in love with me—

Fuck it! I won't say it! Gosh this couldn't be true. We're ancient history, we've been there, done that. We're done. For my frustration, I picked a white flower on the side of my terrace while leaning on the railing, thinking what's the next move. I am fucking fuming at my mind right now. The other day I was planning war between our people and his, now I'm here in his fucking castle wondering if he still loves me.

Wow king Envy, you fucking did your job right. You're fucking messing with my system without even trying. One song, one fucking song and here I am, fucking wanting to come back to his arms, pathetic.

"It wouldn't hurt to fucking play the game, won't it?" I pouted.

Under the night sky, nakapangalumbaba kong itinaas ang puting bulaklak at ginawa ang isang bagay na hindi ko inaasahang gagawin ko sa tanan ng buhay ko. For fucks sake I'm 26 years old in Legendian years, why am I acting like a teenager?

"He loves me, he loves me not." I said as I started removing the petal on the daisy.

I was so focused on what I was doing that I didn't notice his presence.

"May I ask, why are you doing that in the middle of the night, Lady Via?" he asked, which startled my whole soul.

To my surprise, I dropped the flower, causing it to fall his way. He was down the gardens, standing there, wearing his while polo and slacks. It seemed messy, therefore I will assume that he just went out for some fresh air and was going to bed. He chuckled as he caught the flower on time, using his speed as a vampire. I was too shocked to answer his question, so I only kept my eyes on him.