I don't understand why it couldn't have just happened. The day of the accident it was so easy for me to have died. But it didnt. Everytime I think about that say I just wish that I could go back and just sit on the other side.
If only I did I wouldnt have to be here right now. My life would be over. It's been long enough right? I would have just done people a favor. They would be so happy without me.
I just want to fucking die. Tbh life sucks and I hate every moment of it. I mean I never asked to be here. I never asked to be born. So why am I here?
So close to death yet it slipped away. I mean its my fault. If only I was on the other side. All of the pain would be gone. I would finally be happy. I would be with the ones I truly love.
Forever.....
