The next day I woke up with a sense of emptiness that assailed me, the terror of having lost Sabrina to my stupid drinking habit was eating me from inside.
What could I have done to fix it...?
I slowly got up from the sofa after I spent the whole day thinking and looking at the ceiling in a lost way, fighting my desire to write Sabrina to apologize for the whole day.
I went to the wardrobe taking a black suit and looked at myself in the mirror,
thinking how pathetic my reflection was at that moment; my face seemed destroyed by sleep and my eyes red, I think I even cried, I did not remember.
I headed for the car taking my black bag and absent-mindedly drove to the school.
at that moment I remember I didn't care at all if I survived the trip or not, I just knew that maybe I could ruin the only good thing I had that was positive in my life.
<Fuck> I said hitting the steering wheel of the car with my hands after parking the car in the place designated for me.
I got up slowly trying to get courage and arrived in my class in the hope that like every day she was already there, trying to avoid the eyes and words of the other teachers.
As I hoped she was already in the class, sitting at her place, scribbling absently on the sheet of her notebook.
"Hey," I said almost insecure
"Oh hi," she said looking up in my direction.
"Can we talk?" I said playing with my fingers like a nervous schoolgirl.
"Sure," she said closing the notebook to give me her full attention
"I... I'm sorry for yesterday, I shouldn't have been instinctive" I said mortified and embarrassed.
"It doesn't matter I can understand you, you don't have to say sorry just .. you should stop drinking it could be bad for your health" she said and that sentence made me tighten in chest.
<she worries about me> I thought and had to keep from smiling.
"I was wondering .." I said looking at her
"Yup?"
"If you wanted to accompany me, today I will have to meet my mother and she is a very strict person and she believes that I will never have a stable relationship and I have never told her that I broke up with my last girlfriend ... Would you like to accompany me?" I quickly said unsure
"I ... will it be a good idea?" she asked
"I ... I think so" I said "At least you'll be with me"
"Then i'll do it," she said
At that moment, I realized that I wanted nothing more than the company of this special girl, I felt safe and at home around her, a feeling that I had never experienced even as a child.
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La Fille Fraçaise
FanfictionProbably the real turning point came in that moment, when on what seemed like a common Monday morning of a week in September I had an unexpected meeting with what looked like an angel who had stumbled out of Eden and fallen into the misfortunes of t...
