La Fille Fraçaise

one way ride

She kept looking at me and this time it wasn't the alcohol but I couldn't stop myself, I kissed her and this time she kissed me back by wrapping her arms around my neck while I pulled her close to me by waist.
It was the moment I realized I loved her more than I should have done.

I was sure I was dreaming, it seemed impossible it was happening to me at that moment but I realized that, as much as deep inside I had hoped this little instant to happen, that when it came it left me without air in my lungs.
We slowly moved away from the kiss and looked into each other's eyes;
neither of us was able to look away, we were both blocked and our eyes with us, linked to each other.
'It seemed like a dream,' I told her, interrupting the silence.
'But it's not,' She replied touching my hand lightly and sliding her fingers between mine.
I looked at her, still incredulous as I joined our hands and felt my heart about to explode.
'I should go now,' she said and slowly released my hand as she walked towards the door.
My brain was stuck, in a trance, while all I could think was the softness of her lips and her soft touch, nothing else could capture my attention as much as she was doing.
That girl had bewitched me.
Time passed so quickly that I did not have the impression that the whole night went by without me sleeping at all and if it were not a mechanical movement I would be sure I  didn't even blink since she went away, I couldn't stop replying the scene in my head as it was tattooed in my skull.
The alarm went off next to my bed indicating that I should start my day but the only thing I could think about was Sabrina.
I slowly got up and started preparing for what was a new day, even though I knew it would be different after our unexpected kiss, I don't hide the fact that I was afraid that things could change and as I admitted several times I was never good in keeping relationships.
When I got to school the first thing I heard was screams and a crowd rushing to look at something in the school hall, which made me frown: nothing interesting ever happened in that place.
I slowly approached what was catching their attention to see Elise violently hitting Sabrina.
I believe at that time I stopped thinking for a moment and grabbed Elise's arm with a firm grip and pulled her away from poor Sabrina who defenselessly protected herself with her hands as I tried to push away the crowd around her.
"Go to your classroom immediately." I said and looked at Elise angrily. "You, in my office, immediately," I told her angry and saw her expression change as she lowered her head submissively, heading for my office.
I hurried to see Sabrina get up slowly and dust off her skirt; my heart squeezed in my chest making me miss the air in lungs.
"Are you okay?" I asked worried
"Yes, I think so," she said smiling slightly and I noticed that she had a small cut on her left cheek and without thinking I placed my palm gently on it.
"I'm so sorry, you don't deserve it." I said rubbing her cheek gently.
"Don't worry, I'm fine now" She said placing her palm on mine looking straight into my eyes making me feel those butterflies flying straight to my throat intent on coming out.
"I'll talk to her and invite you to dinner tonight, she'll be there, she'll have to get used to your presence" I said and my heart melted when she smiled at me. 'Now if you want to excuse me, I have to take care of a difficult and annoying girl,' I said rolling my eyes referring to Elise, what made her laugh and this calmed me for a moment.
I loved my daughter but in all these years we have never been able to unite after I left her .. I made irremediable mistakes but I always tried to be forgiven I guess, in vain.
I made my way to my office noticing the door ajar and took a big deep breath before walking in and seeing my daughter nervously playing with her fingers.
"Elise" I said harshly
"No, save it for youself" She said getting up "I already remember a similar discussion years ago, you like her and all this shit"
"Yes, I like her but you are my daughter and I love you too" I said
"I hate her instead," she replied avoiding my attempt to show her affection
"She will come to dinner with us, and you will get used to her" I said harshly "I have to improve our relationship and it is my job but I also have the right to love someone so you have to get used to the idea of ​​having her around"
She took a deep breath and walked away from the office slamming the door nervously leaving me lost in my thoughts once again.