Alcatraz

Alcatraz

'You're crazy' he said Followed by a chuckle I smiled. We continued walking down a long and narrow pathway as the sunset 'it's beautiful' I said followed by a smile He checked his watch only to see it was 10:15 PM 'We should get going' he said awkwardly I replied with 'oh ok!' He was acting weird he was fine 2 minutes ago. Did I say something to upset him? He walked me home in complete silence and we shared an awkward goodbye at my doorstep. Soon as I walked in my auntie was there waiting for me, she said, 'so how was it?' I said with a frown 'it was okay I guess' 'I GUESS? what do you mean you have been excited all week; did something happen?' 'Nope of course not' I ran to my room and locked my door. I kept thinking about the day we shared and replayed the conversation in my head repeatedly. Eventually I drifted into a deep sleep but it only lasted 2 and a half hours. By that time, it was about 6:45AM I decided to start getting ready for school. When I finished getting ready, I checked my phone, and it was 8:20AM 'oh no I got to go!' I shot out my front door and frantically ran to my bus stop. Eventually I arrived and saw my bus leaving without me. 'Shoot, I need to walk to school now' the school was about 2 and a half hours away on foot and my auntie was at work so she couldn't drive me, so I started the trek. I arrived about halfway through 3rd period and got an ear full of it from my teacher. With a blink of an eye the bell rang, I walked through the halls and saw Lorenzo. I walked at a fast pace towards him and shouted, 'Lorenzo wait up!' He looked me dead in the eyes and walked faster and faster in the other direction until it was basically a run. Why is he running away? I don't get it; I couldn't stand being at school much longer and left. I walked home but by the time I got their school was basically over. I decided to phone Lorenzo, so I'd know if he was avoiding me or not. I called 2 or maybe 3 times with still no reply I started to wonder if he even wanted to be my friend anymore. What if he knows I like him or worse if there could even be a worse thing. I went up to my bedroom and started doing my English homework, but I just couldn't concentrate. I fell asleep within seconds after that and already it was morning. I got ready as fast as I could and actually made the bus this time. Usually, I'd see Lorenzo at this bus stop, but he wasn't there I had just assumed he was off sick. I read over our text messages, and it said 'opened 14h ago' then I knew he definitely was blanking me. When the bus arrived, I went inside the school, we ALWAYS sit together in maths because that's the only class we're together in. But he had moved to the other end of the class next to Katelyn. He knows how much I hate her; how could he do that I thought he hated her to. I just could scream right now honestly; I don't know why I'm so mad maybe I'm being dramatic. I turned around to see them kiss and I burst out crying and ran out of the classroom. I couldn't stand being there, the thought of them being together made me sick to my stomach. I went to the bathroom and didn't leave until the end of lunch no matter how much I tried to stop crying I couldn't. I wanted to hurt Katelyn so badly in that moment. After thinking about the whole incident, I finally put the Peaces together. She was making him not talk to me, God I knew he was desperate, but I didn't think he wanted a girlfriend that badly. Next period had just started and me and Katelyn were in the same English class as she walked by it was like I had lost all control of my body I had gotten up and shouted, 'Hey Katelyn over here!' And

punched her right in the jaw I saw the blood and it only motivated me to punch more. I had gotten her on the ground, but a teacher had come and split us up. I think I would've killed her right there and then if Mrs miller hadn't have stopped me. I was suspended for 2 and a half weeks but honestly thank God I don't think I could face Lorenzo after what I had just did to his girlfriend. My auntie had just come to pick me up, she had basically dragged me to our car. 'What were you thinking?!' She screamed, I replied with 'I don't know. I'm sorry I don't know what came over me I promise I won't do this EVER again.' 'You know what, I don't even want to hear it from you' she said in an angry tone. 'Bu- 'she cut me off as I tried to explain. the car was dead silent after that. As soon as we arrived home I ran straight to my room and didn't hesitate to cry. I slammed my door in anger and ran over to my bed. I just tried to sleep but I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. I decided to text Lorenzo hoping that he'd answer me this time. I said 'Why, why her out of everyone?' He responded within seconds and said 'You know what you did, and how could you do that to Katelyn. Even if you don't like someone you don't start a fight.' I stopped the conversation in anger and felt even more anger towards Katelyn. Later that night I was scrolling through Instagram and saw a picture of them together. If I'm being honest my heart broke a little more every time, I saw them together. I hated feeling like this, what had I ever done to deserve this? I cried and cried for hours on end waiting for this devastating day to end. When the clock turned to 12AM I decided I was going to go for a run as I opened my window feeling the freezing air against my face I paused and remembered to bring a weapon in case as it was late at night. I went out the window and ran as fast as I could so my auntie wouldn't see me at the window. I just kept running until I saw Katelyn kissing Lorenzo goodbye at her doorstep. My blood was boiling, and I don't think I had ever felt so upset. Lorenzo drove away and I saw Katelyn trying to unlock her door. I could not help it I started walking over to her I had lost all control of my body and feared for what would come next. I stuttered 'Katelyn can we talk?' She replied, 'No get away from me freak!' 'I'm trying to apologise.' 'I don't care, oh and just so you know I know you like Lorenzo and I will do EVERYTHING to make sure you never talk to him again' she said followed by a smirk I didn't hesitate and pulled out my pocketknife and said, 'if I was you, I would end things with Lorenzo or terrible things may start happening to you.' 'What are you going to do weirdo, it's not even like you have any friends to back you up' I couldn't help it and I stabbed her right in the stomach 13 times fracturing 3 or possibly even more organs. No, what did I just do. I dropped the knife and looked down at her still body then looked at my hands and saw blood, so much of it. I ran home as quickly as I could and had a breakdown in my room quivering in fear. I heard sirens loud as day, but they didn't stop at my house. Oh god they must have found her, I went for a shower to wash all the blood off of my hands. After that I decided to start making a list of all the things I must do before I go to jail, the hardest thing on it would probably be saying my final goodbyes to Lorenzo as I know he'd never want to see me again. It hurts to think about how much I love him and all the hatred he had towards me right now. I honestly started to believe we were meant to be he was just, well perfect. I couldn't eat or sleep for weeks after that. The memory of seeing her there it felt like time was frozen. I felt so guilty then but as time went on it faded slowly.

I sat the next few weeks in stress waiting for the police to figure it out. next thing I knew my suspension was over and I had to go back to school. Soon as I entered premises everyone went quiet and started giving me daggers. I couldn't help but think EVERYONE knew what I did. Next thing I knew the bell rang and I started heading to class. I sat down in my usual seat but every single seat near me was empty. I just sat in silence the whole period. Eventually it was lunch and I walked down the wide staircase about to get my lunch tray. 'PUT YOUR HANDS UP!' I raised my hands with a worried face as the whole school looked at me in horror. 'Anything you say can and will be used against you in the court of law. If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be provided' a tear fell down my cheek as I knew this would be the end of me. As we headed towards the doors I saw Lorenzo, he gave me the most disappointed look ever. I could just see the hurt in his eyes. They quickly chucked me in the police car not caring about how rough they were. I fell asleep as I knew it was going to be a long and tiring journey.

Hours had past and I had finally arrived at Alcatraz

I was confused why didn't I get a trial? Isn't that illegal, it's not fair how do they know for sure it was me.

Everything after that was a blur until I got to my cell. I thumped down on my bed and stared at the plain stone wall. Thinking about everything that had happened. I felt so much regret, but not for killing her. For not covering up my tracks I could have gotten away with it though, that's what truly annoyed me. All I could hear was screaming and banging it wasn't very settling. It smelt like rotten fish; all I could feel was the ice-cold metal bars along my spine. I cried and cried, all I wanted was to see Lorenzo. This was all Katelyn's fault if only she had just left me and Lorenzo alone. I just couldn't wrap my head around how I was so in love I commit murder.

Months had past and it felt like the days were being played on a loop. Maybe 1 or 2 details had changed if even that. It was awful, I had never felt as much pity as I did for myself in that moment. I had almost been here for a year, and I noticed the prison was starting to fill up tremendously. One day a guard opened my cell door and grabbed me by the wrists. 'What are you doing?!' I shouted at the top of my lungs, no response. Who do these guards think they are? I have the right to know where I'm being taken. As I was violently being dragged down the cafeteria I could've bet my life on it, it was Lorenzo! I screamed his name repeatedly but when he finally looked me, he looked as if I was a stranger? Maybe it wasn't Lorenzo. I felt stupid. Still being dragged through the prison we finally arrived at this room. I mean I wasn't complaining it was better than my cell. I sat on the bed it had the fluffiest mattress and nice CLEAN sheets. I felt I was in heaven. Until a tall angry looking man entered and said 'Alisa, I've got some sad news. Well for you anyway.' Him and the other guards chuckled. "As you know the prison has been rather overcrowded lately." I nodded with sweat dripping down my forehead. "Well, we need to get rid of some people, the warden recommended you" I felt so happy I thought that would mean I'd be let out, But I was terribly mistaken. "Get some rest as it will be your last. Oh, and before I go what would you like as your last meal." my face went as pale as a bone and my heart dropped with the tone of his voice. "I-I don't know." I replied in a shaky voice "Suit yourself" he said with a smirk as he exited the room. I cried and cried without stopping for the longest time. Maybe it's for the best, I suppose it's better than it is living here forever. I decided to get some rest as I'd regret it if I didn't. Soon as I woke up and the thought of my death sent shivers down my spine. The scary man walked in and grabbed me. He brought me to an ugly room as bad as my cell I realised it was almost my time. "Are you sure you don't want anything as a last meal, this is your last chance." he said followed by an eye roll acting like he was forced to ask, "Actually can I please get an iced coffee?" "Right" he said followed by a sigh, he left the room, and I was just thinking about my life. After about 10-15 minutes he came back and thumped it on the metal table. I drank it when I finished, I knew I had to say my last words. A tear met my eye, and my voice went all wobblily. The truth is I had fallen deeply in love. Love is passion, and it's the only thing that can make you that crazy. he's someone I couldn't live without. I'd really fallen head over heels for him and honestly, I'd do this a thousand times and over for him.