𝙳𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚎

Chapter 8

Bang Chan POV~

"No Minho... we can't"

take it back, chan.. please take it back

That's what I wanted to say. I wanted to take back everything everything that just came out of my mouth but it was too late. I wanted to say please Minho I missed you so much. I missed our talks, everything about him.

But, I can't. It's too late to take it back. I never understood and I still don't. Minho liking me, That can't be true. Hannah's lying, I know she is. But even is she isn't . Even if there was a 10% chance that she isn't what I am suppose to do with the information she gave me.

"Chan please, why? What did I do." He pleaded with me. He looked desperate. I looked at his eyes, swollen red I presume from crying. His hair disheveled and all over the place. His clothes had stains on them and he was wearing two different shoes. I looked out the window and I didn't see a car.

"Did you- did you run here?" He nods vigorously he goes to reach out but I step back. I see him look down, tears starting to form in his eyes. I couldn't help but feel bad for him. My mind starts spinning.

Chan, stop being like this. Chan you need him. you always have. you always will. Just take him back. Hug him like you wanted to for weeks. Every part of my body urged to hug him again. smell the perfume he considered "manly" and swore by. To hold him whole he cries. To be the one he goes to.

So why can't I?

"Chan listen, I know you don't want to see me or hear from me. I don't know why or what I did. I have been here for you no matter what and living life without you has been the roughest weeks of my life. I haven't given out flowers because it's not you giving them to me anymore. I haven't dances because I don't have my inspiration and motivation anymore. I barley eat, I don't sleep. Chan, without you I barley function. I really just want my friend back-"

"Why-" I whispered and he looks up. His cheeks stained with tears. My chest pained with hurt. I was hurting Minho. I was hurting someone I loved the most.

"Why do you like me?"

"Jesus Chan, why wouldn't I. God you are perfect in most ever way shape an form. No one knows you like I do. But, if they did they would see exactly what I see. You are the most perfect delicate boy I have ever met. the way you smile and laugh. The way you have witty replies to every one of my comments. How you're able to love the world when the world hasn't even tried to love you back. Chan, you are my everything. My inspiration, my motivation, my reason for life. God, do you even know what I went in everyday to that flower shop to see you. I mean- like yes I wanted to give out flowers. But the only one I wanted was you. You are my delicate flower. One I have wanted." By this point his on the ground crying looking up at me. His arms clench my leg holding on for dear life.

"Please Channie, please don't leave." I tried to wipe his tears but more replace the ones that were there. "We don't ever have to be anything more than friends. I never expected anything to happen. I didn't even want you to know. Hannah took it in her hands and I didn't know. But please, say you won't leave me."

My head starts spinning. Out of my peripheral vision I see Hannah on the stairs watching it all play out. I see he hurt in her eyes. Hoe she sat on the stairs curled up. As one tear slid down her face. Did she like Minho? My minho, that would make sense for everything that has happened. Does minho know? 

Wait- it doesn't fricking matter. Minho is mine and will be mine. Always.

"I will do anything. I will learn sign language for you. I already started learning it. I can keep a distance if you want. I will take your shifts or learn how to play FIFA(chans fav video game) just for you. I will do anythin-"

I yank him up into a hug which he immediately embraced me back. I hold him tightly as he sobs into my shoulder. But I will never let go. We slid to the floor as I stroke his hair, All the words I want to say but can't.

I don't know how to. So I just hold him as tight as possible. I look up and find Hannah gone. Must have retreated back to her room. He whimpered and make inaudible sentences and I just shush him. He holds onto me tighter wrapping his tiny arms around my waist and snuggles his head into the crook of my neck.

Everything felt right. I didn't feel weird or awkward. All I wanted and wished for was to stay like this. Holding him, keep him safe.

He looks up at me as I take the time to wipe everyone of of his painful tear away. Every tear that I caused. I look at him with guilt and I just smiled at him. He gives me a smile back and then goes straight back into being face first into my chest.

"Umm, sorry to break the moment," We both look up to see Mama Bang in the corridor, "But do you maybe wanna get off the floor and like I don't know, go sit on a couch or on a bed like everyone else does. As much as I feel y'all are going for the wattpad apology and make up. But, do sit somewhere, please." Minho laugh and I sign a "sorry".

I stand up and pull minho up with me. He pouts and makes grabby arms.

"No, im not carrying you," I sign and he whines. Immediately give up when I see the smile forming on his face. I pick him up ad his legs find they way around my waist as his arm snake around my neck. I carrying up upstairs and when we get inside he just hugs me, I and I refuse.

"Chan, please-" he looks up, "Please don't leave me. I can't do this without you." I nod at him and he just smiles. 

I'm not going anywhere

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heres the long awaited update. Sorry if its lame. I wanted to get something out for you guys. Will prob edit it more later. Please lemme know your thoughts. i still have a lot of ideas for this book so don't think its quote over yet.

Chan and Minho having and easy life-nah man. Its wattpad after all.

Love ya,

Kiki