we both are gay but not dating!? (larry stylinson ff)

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on the same evening he asked me if i wanna be his boyfriend. first i was really unsure cause he did it really dry over chat but we talked about it later. we both went on a bike tour together and it felt like a dream. as we made a break we went into a little forest and nobody came there cause it wasn't really famous. we sat there, looked at each other, laughed and looked at the sky. he loves the clouds and i love the way he talks about it. we made another break at a lake and we layed there, my head on his stomach. i love this lake cause it gave me so many beautiful memories, i hope i'll never forget.

we were almost done with our tour but we sat down togehter before we had to go in other directions. we sat down at stairs and kissed. he told me how beautiful i am and how i am much prettier than the clouds. i never thought that this sentence could stay in my mind for weeks or month. this meant so much to me. how could i ever forget him when the sky reminds me of him. everytime i look up i think of him and what he said to me.

it was almost 8 p.m. and i had to go back so we went to our bikes which were hidden behind a tree and we both wanted to give a goodbye kiss but there were some people and i asked harry " do we really care?" and he responded with "kinda"

ouch. i don't know what happened to him but he is scared of people knowing that he is gay. i mean he is knowing for being gay in school so what does it matter when some strangers sees us. i saw the pain in his eyes. when the people were away we kissed for a second and then both went home. on the way home i thought of it and i noticed that he doesn't hold my hand when someone is around, he doesn't cuddle with me when someone is around, he doesn't kiss me when someone is around. i understand when he doesnt wanna show everyone but at least holing hands you know.

some days later we met again before he is going to france. i was really exhausted cause i was in holidays before so we just cuddled and took a nap for an hour. i love being in his arms. he makes me feel like home. safe.

we didnt had a goodbye kiss cause there were people again but we hugged and he kissed my neck so nobody could see it. i still feel his lips on the place he kissed me.

harry is in france for 1 week and a half now and he doesn't really has wifi so its kinda complicated to write with him. at least he wrote me yesterday evening cause he saw i cut my hair and said it looked really sexy. i couldn't sleep cause it made me so happy to here from him again. i am also going into holidays in half a week i hope im gonna get a little bit distracted so i don't have to miss him as much as i do right now. i really do miss him.

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i barely knew you. i barely knew the sound of your voice or the comfort of your touch. but i fell in love. it's not one of those things that words can explain. you just felt different from the rest of the world. you had this spark about you that no one else did. something that precious can't be ignored. so i fell in love with you. i fell in love with the light you gave me. and i fell in love with the way you made me believe.

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