we both are gay but not dating!? (larry stylinson ff)

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louis pov:

i'm going to the same school as him. i don't really know him, i don't even know his name. i mean he looks so good and his confidence is everything. i watch him everyday in the school break and hope he doesn't catch me. one time i was staring at him and he saw me and looked right into my eyes and this gave me damn butterflies. i always wanted to get to know him. just being friends with him even he is some kind of a hallway crush, but being friends with him would be enough for me. he seems funny.

i searched for his insta for weeks. i still didnt knew his name. nothing happened for the next days. one time i was sitting in the break again and suddenly i saw a person coming up to him. i knew this person. a friend of mine is friends with them and i also have their instagram. i could ask them who he was, and thats what i did. first there was a little misunderstanding and the person gave me the wrong username but i realized and asked again. now i had his beautiful name called harry and his insta username. am i gonna write him? why should i, i mean he is so much cooler than me. i told my best friend about him and they kinda forced me to write the guy and so i did. thats how it began.

he wrote me back and then began to talk about his mothersday and it felt like i knew him for years. we began to text each other for some days. he still ignored me in school and i felt like a nobody to him. i felt like i wasn't even there and that i'm unvalid.

another day i was hanging out with a friend in the City and wrote him as a joke "if you come over i'll buy you an ice cream." and he really came. i couldn't believe it. it's the first time we talked in person and ofc it was weird in the beginning but it got better fom time to time.

2 days later we met again alone and it was really funny. We met 2 times every week and i got to now some of his friends. one of his friends is called zayn and i love him (as a friend). he is the sweetest person i've ever met.

back to harry. everyone knows he is gay. he is like the standard gay dude. i felt more in love with him and his confidence everytime we met (even he can be an asshole sometimes.) he is a flirty one and this kinda hurts cause i know he just sees me as a friend. he makes sex jokes and even slaps me on my ass (what's kinda weird) and also we sometimes hold hands but more as a joke when we are with our friends. he gives me hope sometimes but we don't have this emotional friendship and i don't know how to create this kinda relationship. i always said being friends with him is enough but i think i changed my mind.

it's vacation for 2 weeks and he is gonna fly to france without me. what am i gonna do those weeks? i already miss him so much and i wish i could hug him really thight and really long. i can't and this bothers me so much. he is on his way to the other country and maybe has the time of his live. he won't miss me or even write me, i know he won't.

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i felt in love. i felt in love with this guy. i dont know his name, i dont know him but his eyes. i know his eyes and how my heart explodes when he looks at me. i dont know how it happened but i dont really like it. the hope, the feelings, the thoughts. i dont really like being in love. i just wanna get to know him. he seems funny.

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