If Only You Could Love Me Back

Fourth Shot : Sydney Summers

Mine and mine only .

Nakita ko si Eyang kasama ang mga kaibigan nya , mukhang may lakad ata sila .

Wait ..

Who's that guy na dikit ng dikit kay Eyang ?

Uwian na namin at hinihintay ko si Eyang sa may quadrangle kasi sabay kaming uuwi . Nakatayo lang ako sa may corner at pinapanood yung mga nagpa practice ng sayaw . Foundation day na kasi namin next week at isa din ako sa mga organizers ng event na yun .Si Sydney naman hindi pa makakauwi dahil tinatapos nya pa yung slides na ippresent nya bukas for reporting .

Nakita ko na rin sya , ang baby girl ko .

Marami syang kasama , mga classmates nya yung iba ,yung iba naman orgmates nya .

"Hey Amy ! Halika na . Uwi na tayo . " bati ko sa kanya habang papalapit sya sa kinatatayuan ko .

" Sorry Smile hindi pa kasi ako uuwi . May group study kasi kami ngayon . Magpahinga ka na pagkauwi mo . Sige na ingat ka ." Tinalikuran nya na ako pagkasabi nya nun . Hahabulin ko pa sana sya kaya lang nakakahiya naman sa mga kasama nya .

Ang hindi ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit may kasama silang lalaki . At mukhang may gusto pa sa baby girl ko .

Parang biglang kumulo ang dugo ko na hindi ko maintindihan . Yun bang parang bigla ka na lang nakaramdam ng pinaghalong inggit at inis , samantalang hindi ko naman kilala ang lalaking yon .

Siguro naiinis lang ako kasi sobrang naexcite ako dahil akala ko makakasabay ko na ulit umuwi si Andrea ,tapos biglang may lakad pala sya .

Mejo nahihilo nanaman ako , mabuti na lang at malapit na ko sa kotse ko .

Aiisst ! Sobrang nahihilo na ko ! I managed to call my driver to help me to get inside .

" Uhm , sir dadalhin ko na po ba kayo sa hospital ? " panay ang check sa'akin ni kuya Bert sa rearview mirror .

"No I'm fine . I just need to rest . Just wake me up when we get home ."bilin ko na lang habang hinihilot ko yung sentido ko in circular motion to ease the pain.

Kahit sobrang sama na ng pakiramdam ko hindi ko pwedeng ipahalata dahil baka maging cause ng confinement ko nanaman ito . It will take so long again before i will be able so see my girlfriend and my .. my .. my bestfriend .

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" Oh anak kumusta ang pakiramdam mo ?" Nag aalalang tanong ng mom ko . She's always like that and I hate it , seeing her so worried about my condition makes me feel so vulnerable .

" Mom I'm okay . Nothing to worry about . I'm fine  . " pagsisinungaling ko naman . I can handle the pain . No need for another month long hospitalization .

Umakyat na 'ko at dumirecho sa kwarto ko . Nagbihis tapos nagtake ng medications ko then i threw myself into bed . It really sucks !

Sobrang sakit kasi ng kalahati ng ulo ko . Pakiramdam ko nga sasabog na ito . Alam ko naman ang tungkol sa sakit ko . Next month graduation ko na . Ayokong mafrustrate ang mommy ko . Gusto kasi nya na makita akong mag march sa graduation ko . Alam ko kahit hindi nya aminin sakin , tinitreasure nya every moment na kasama ako , cause she knows na anytime she might lose me .

Nadiagnosed ako two months ago ,  brain tumor stage one . Sa mga susunod na results ng test na ginawa sakin pa malalaman kung malignant or benign na yung tumor sa utak ko .

It was shocking at first but then i get used to it . Madalas masakit yung ulo ko , yung sakit na halos iumpog ko na lang para mamanhid .

I told my parents to keep it from Sydney and Amy . I don't want them to worry . I'm fine . I guess ..

Kinuha ko yung phone ko sa may side table ng bed ko . I scanned my contacts .. and dialled ...

" Hey ".

"Hey babe i missed you ! I'm sorry i had a lot to do awhile ago kaya ndi ako nakasabay sayo kanina , wait are you ok now ?" how i missed her . I smiled as she continued to talk .

"Babe you know what i badly miss you . " she said sadly .

"Babe i missed you too . Your voice , the way you talk and everything about you . I really do miss you .  " finally the words came out ! Akala ko ndi na ko makapagsalita e .Para akong ewan ! Pangiti ngiti ako habang nakikinig sa girlfriend ko :D

"I'm sorry if i did'nt get to answer your calls babe . I just don't want you to worry about me too much . I love you and will always do . " i love her . Totoo naman e .

"Babe i love you and you know that . Don't do that again okay ? Promise me ! Halos mabaliw kaya ako thinking na baka you're dating someone else and you don't love me anymore ! You're so bad ! Dapat bumawi ka sakin ! You've been gone for a month and that's insane ! " sweet ng Sydney ko :)

"I won't i promise ! I love you . Go to sleep i know you're tired , babawi ako sa'yo promise babe , I'm sorry for what i've done , i'll wait for you to hang up before i end the call . I love you babe you're the reason why ...

my heart still beats."

Mahal ko nga siya no doubt .

"Awwww so sweeeet . I love you more babe . I'll kiss you everyday so you won't get sick again . Get some rest okay ? I love you to the moon and back ! Bye goodnight . "

She hung up , i ended the call . Why do girls always end up to be sweeter than us boys ? I tried to make her kilig pero her words was more sweeter than mine and it sent me shivers to my spine :D

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Sydney Summers

Sydney's P.o.V

Sweet . He's so sweet . Perfect couple as it is !

I never knew that i will be able to find a guy like him . He's an achiever and much of his physical aspects , he's an ideal boyrfriend . Almost every girl sa campus namin ay naiinggit sa'kin and yung iba naiinis ! well i can't blame them , ikaw ba naman ang maging girlfriend ng isang Sancho Miguel Lenosa ?

Student council president + honor student + school paper editor + campus hearthrob = PERFECT !

Siguro nga swerte ako because i was loved by someone like him . Pero hindi naman sa laht ng bagay ay maswerte ako .

I'm from a broken family .
My dad lives in the U.S while me and my mom are here in the Philippines . My mom decided to file a divorce when he caught my father in the middle of a heated make out with his secretary .

My dad explained his side and said it was nothing . But my mom refused to believe him because she said he's been lying to us for years and she can't take it anymore .

Ayun nagmigrate kami dito when i was in sixth grade . And then i met him .. SMiLe :)

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-CG