Short Stories

Anxious 5

Vince

"Fuck." I groaned. Shawn laughed and finished filling in the blank words. "This is boring so I'm not even mad I lost." I was actually mad.

"Don't be a sore loser Vincent. This is good for your mind." He smiled, setting the crosswords puzzles aside.

"It's what old people do to not go senile." I grumbled.

"You're pouting." He teased. "My lunch is over but thank you for visiting." He stood up. I stood and followed after him.

"Yeah it was nice spending lunch with you." I smiled and took his hand. He looked at me with a warm smile. "I should be going." I whispered.

"Yeah you should." He grinned. He lifted a hand with a document in front of our faces. Shawn gave me a quick peck before pushing me out the door. I turn with one last smile before going on my way.

I said goodbye to his assistant before leaving the building. I needed to get back to work and start working on a few production problems. Mass producing drones is hard because of all the parts and having an airtight assembly is required. I need to sit in for a day and see why my production has slowed down and what I need to do to fix it. I think it's just a matter of who works at what station.

After work today I plan on taking Shawn to this restaurant. He expressed how he loves to try new food and I found this place where the menu changes every night to a different cuisine. I can't wait to see what they have tonight. It might stop us from doing anything but I'm still going to have a good time.

This arrangement with Shawn is starting to feel comfortable, I like it. Some nights we don't even do anything, he comes over, we talk, cuddle and he works while I go to sleep. I realize this is what a relationship is and I'm starting to think it's not that bad. I like Shawn, he's funny and caring and so fucking good at sex. This deal is horrible because I'd never get bored with him. In the past after the first time I'd start to become interested in other things but not with Shawn.

I know I have a problem when it comes to relationships, I can't help it. As a kid, the only stable relationship I saw was Martins but for years I didn't live with him. My house was ran rampant with cheating and lies. Why would I want to subject myself to something like that. The idea of a relationship scares me. Even if right now that's what me and Shawn have. I don't want to turn into my parents, I wouldn't want to do that to Shawn.

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"Who has you smiling that big?" I heard Martin's voice. "I hope it's not Shawn, the guy I said would be a perfect match for you." He sat across from me.

"I was wrong." I sighed. "He's an amazing man but that still doesn't mean we're together."

"Why the hell not?" He glared. "I'm tired of this broken act you're putting on because of your parents. You're not them Vince and I think you've found an amazing man to spend your life with." I went silent. "What's stopping you?"

"This fear that'll happen. Even if all the cards all lined up right and me and Shawn love each other, what if I slip up, what if he falls out of love with me, what if it sizzles out."

"From my calculations you've been messing around with him for three months and you've yet to grow bored. And all those worries are just that, worries. What if the sun falls from the sky and crushes us tomorrow. Are we going to give up living because that's a possibility?" I shook my head. "So why are you giving up love because of possibilities? You're going to regret it if you give Shawn up. I promise you that."

"I'm starting to realize that might be true." I nodded.

"Good now, go tell him that."

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