I'm yours for life. [ PAUSED ]

Chapter 6: Broken

Weeks passed. Felix were getting used to living with Hyunjin and his crew, but he occasionally went back to his apartment to get some alone time away from the others. He had also arranged with both Hyunjin and his employer to work weekends, so he had essentially gone down from working full time to working part time, which he was okay with. It was better than nothing and he was still making his own money and not only living off of Hyunjin's insane amount of money. Lord knows where those money came from. Hyunjin had also agreed to let Felix's cat stay at the mansion, despite him being allergic. He hated himself for saying it, but life was turning out pretty good. Despite everything. The only thing he had some issues with was that he needed a bodyguard wherever he went.

Which led him to what he was about to do. He desperately craved some alone time, without his bodyguard following his every footstep and preventing him from doing things because of safety reasons. So, he had planned to use the downstairs restroom. The restroom had a window that could be opened, and it was only a few meters down to the ground. It was a perfect plan. That's what he originally thought at least.

It was close to 9 pm and Felix's plan was about to start. He excused himself from the kitchen and went to the restroom, just like he planned. He walked into the restroom, locked the door and carefully opened the large, frosted window, making sure that the bodyguard outside the door didn't hear him. Before climbing out, he opened the tap, creating the illusion that he was washing his face or his hands. It wouldn't work for long, so he had to be quick.

Felix jumped out the window, being completely still after landing in the bushes before he took off. He didn't know exactly where he was going, he just needed to get away for a few minutes. The blonde boy eventually found a small beach, looking out over the lake. It wasn't too far from the mansion, he could still see the lights. Felix exhaled deeply and sat down on the beach, removing his shoes and his socks and then put his feet into the water. This was peaceful. This was exactly what he needed.

He sat there for at least 15 minutes until he heard rustling in the bushes from behind him. Probably just an animal, he thought to himself and turned around again, gently touching the water with his hands. The rustling suddenly stopped, but he didn't think much about it. Out of nowhere, he was grabbed by the neck and dragged on the beach. He broke free but was wrestled down instead. Felix tried to scream, but the person attacking him covered his mouth with a piece of cloth before dragging him out in the lake. This is it, he thought, I'm going to die now.

The attacker then pushed Felix's head under the water, holding him extremely tight to prevent him from squirming. Whoever was attacking him had the intentions of killing him, that much he knew. He opened his eyes under the water to try and catch a glimpse of the person doing this. He couldn't quite see because of the darkness, but the silhouette looked like a man. That was the last thing Felix saw before everything started going black. He could feel his body relaxing, he was accepting death.

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Hyunjin was growing increasingly annoyed. What was he doing in there? And why was it taking him so long? His patience grew short, and he kicked the door open, only to find the restroom empty. His heart sank when he saw the open window. The red head rushed out from the restroom, flung the front door open and ran outside. Where the fuck are you, Felix? Hyunjin thought to himself.

His two bodyguards – Chan and Changbin – came running out as soon as they had heard the commotion, along with Han and Jeongin. "What's going on?" Han asked as he watched their leader getting more and more distressed. "Felix's gone," Hyunjin said and swallowed thickly. "We have to find him," he continued and told Chan to grab the flashlights in his car. "You two," he started and pointed at Han and Jeongin, "Get the motorcycles and start looking, he can't be too far away, he doesn't know the area well enough."

The two younger men nodded and immediately ran off to the garage. Minutes later they were off. "Chan, Changbin. Get in the car," Hyunjin ordered. The three men got into the car and started speeding off after Han and Jeong. The two younger men had stopped at the small beach close to the mansion and they were waving desperately for them to stop. Hyunjin pretty much smashed the brake pedal to the mat before throwing himself out of the car and ran towards the body on the beach and pushed Han and Jeong to the side. It was Felix's body.

[ Soundtrack: Isak Danielson – Broken ]

He froze for a couple for seconds. It couldn't end like this. Not for Felix. Not for him. Not for anyone. "Nonono," he whispered and fell down to his knees next to Felix's motionless body. He was cold and wet. "You two, search the woods!" Hyunjin shouted while pulling Felix's body up in his arms. "Come on, Felix, wake up," he mumbled and patted Felix's cheek a couple of times. He was getting too cold. Hyunjin removed his jacket, ripped Felix's shirt open, got into position and started doing chest compressions.

Hyunjin did exactly thirty chest compressions before pressing his lips against Felix's and blew air into his lungs, watching his chest rise up and then fall. That was the first time their lips had ever touched, and he wished the circumstances were different. He did thirty more compressions and two breaths into the younger man's lungs. Still nothing.

You don't have to hurt anymore.

"Hyunjin," Chan said and put his hand on the red heads shoulder. Hyunjin shook his hand off and continued doing CPR, desperately trying to bring Felix back to life. Tears were threatening to come out. He clenched his teeth. "Hyunjin, stop. He's gone."

With a little time, take a look and find what you're searching for.

No. He refused to believe what Chan was telling him. The bigger man did multiple attempts to pull Hyunjin away from Felix's body. Hyunjin pushed Chan away time and time again. Chan eventually gave up and walked towards the car and leaned against it, crossing his arms and rubbing his chin while watching Hyunjin continue CPR on the obvious lifeless body. Han and Jeong had returned at this point, silently watching their distressed leader.

"Come on, Felix!" Hyunjin screamed throughout the chest compressions, then two breaths in. The body on the beach suddenly started coughing and Hyunjin immediately turned Felix to his side, allowing the water he swallowed to come out. Relief washed over Hyunjin, gently pulling Felix's hair away from his face.

Is your love from before still strong?

Once Felix was done coughing and spitting out water, he looked around before his eyes landed on Hyunjin above him. When did he get here? Hyunjin immediately pulled Felix into his arms, not caring that his clothes were becoming soaking wet. The others had gathered at the car a few meters away by now, giving the two men some privacy. "Hyu−" Felix croaked, still trying to catch his breath, his hands grabbing Hyunjin's shirt. "Shh," Hyunjin hushed him, gently putting his hands on Felix's cheeks, his thumbs rubbing his apples. "It's okay now," he mumbled, trying to swallow the lump in his throat before pressing his lips against Felix's, expecting the younger man to push him away but much to his surprise, he returned the kiss. "God, you're so fucking stupid, Felix," Hyunjin mumbled between the kisses, then pressing his forehead against Felix's. "Don't ever do that again. Don't scare me like that," he said, kissing Felix's lips one more time before lifting him up bridal style and carried him to the car.

"Chan, you're driving," Hyunjin ordered while carefully sitting down in the backseat with Felix on his lap, not giving two fucks about wearing seatbelt. He held Felix close to him the entire drive back to the mansion where the rest of the crew was standing outside, all of them wondering what had happened. Chan told them not to question it as they walked inside.

Hyunjin carried Felix to the bedroom, gently put him down on the bed and then almost rushing to the bathroom to grab a towel. He came back and wrapped the towel around Felix's shoulder, gently rubbing his arms while kneeling down in front of him. "I'm sorry," Felix whispered, nervously nibbling on the towel, trying to control his shivering. "Don't," Hyunjin said and put a finger against Felix's cold lips. "We'll talk about it tomorrow, let me take care of you."

Felix just nodded, tears now streaming down his cheeks, his bottom lip quivering. Hyunjin cupped his cheeks and pressed their lips together. "I love you, you fucking idiot."

You're broken on the floor, asking him for more.