I Love Her, Can She Love Me?

Chapter Eight: A True Angel Appears

I don't remember much else from last night, probably due to the copious amount that we smoke and drank. I stare at Jacobs tv and try and sober up a bit. I grab my phone and press the screen. "Stupid brick." I mumble realizing my phone is dead. I shrug it and look behind me. Jacob is passed out on the recliner snoring contently. I rub my face and make a mental note to send him a text letting him know that I had to go.

I grab my cigarettes and my phone but I can't find my fucking keys. I groan and shrug just ready to go home to my bed. I start walking home sipping Crown Royale occasionally. I took a flask from Jacob and filled it with some Crown. I'll get it back to him soon. I'm just so fucking sad. Why is my mind on her.

For some reason I'm getting major deja vu as I hear a car slow down beside me. I look over ready to cuss someone out when I see her. Fuck me. "ANTHONY WAYNE ROLLINS GET YOUR ASS IN THIS FUCKING CAR!!" I drop my flask in my pocket and obey. I'm met immediately with a hug and tears. "I'm fine mom I'm fine calm down I was just at Jacobs." She smacks the back of my head. "That's what you told me but why are you out here and where is your car? I've been texting and calling you for hours! Hours Anthony!!" I sigh and start to tear up for some reason.

My mom notices this and softens her voice. "Hey....are you hungry baby?" I look over as I keep the tears from spilling and nod slowly. She kisses my forehead and starts to drive. "Okay then...let's get you fed." The drive to Grill Out was silent apart from my moms slow steady breathing. Her tired eyes focused on the road.

I frown and lean over resting my drunken head on her shoulder as she drives. She kisses my head and lays hers softly on mine. When we get to Grill Out it's pretty empty. I mean it is almost 2 in the morning. My mom orders my favorite and then herself a drink. She parks the car and hands me my food. I didn't realize just how hungry I was until I smelled that delicious burger. I devour my food as my mom texts. Probably telling my dad im safe.

I finish my food and thank her softly. She sighs and lifts my head to look at her. "Anthony sweetheart I hope you know everything I do is for you. I just want to keep you safe and happy. I love you and I want you to know that you can talk to me. About anything on your mind. Anytime of day. I'll always be here for you I'll always support you and I'll always love you. My sweet sweet boy." She kisses my cheek and smiles a bit.

I can't stop the tears this time. I sob into my mother arms like a toddler for what feels like hours. I then open up and tell her everything that's been going on lately. I tell her about Deb and Jacobs house how I feel so stupid and can't understand anything in college. I decide not to tell her about Ms. Downes. That's not something I wanna discuss with my mother.

By the time I finish my moms face is bright pink and her ears are definitely hot. She helps me clean up my face then starts driving back home silently. Is she mad? Is it at me? Why isn't she talking? A million thoughts race through my head. We get home and she speaks slowly and calmly. A very dangerous combo for her. "I think you need a day off.

Tomorrow you shouldn't go to school. I do expect you to be up and dressed no later than noon. Shower brush your teeth comb your hair. Then come to my office and we'll have a chat." I swallow hard and nod, "Alright momma. I love you." She smiles at me and ruffles my hair. "I love you Anth. I'll take your father to get your car." I get inside and immediately crash on my bed. I hope I can catch some sleep.