I Love Her, Can She Love Me?

Chapter 9: Hangover

I rub the sleep from my eyes and sigh getting out of bed to close my curtains. "Stupid sunlight." I mumble to no one. I've got such a fucking headache. I grab my phone from my nightstand and huffed content. Only 8:30 which means I can go back to sleep. I huff softly realizing I need to empty my bladder. I slowly make my way downstairs and relieve myself before jumping back in bed. I yawn and close my eyes letting sleep envelop me.

I groan exasperated as my alarm screams at me to wake up. I shut it off angrily and huff sitting up. I rub my eyes and face trying to wake up as I smell something delicious.  I smile and go downstairs seeing my mom at the stove cooking up a storm. I go and piss again before going to her, "Morning Momma." She smiles at me with love and gives me a big hug, "Hello Antsy Pants. How are we doing this morning? Feeling any better?" I roll my eyes at my childhood nickname but smile.

"I'm 19 ma don't you think I'm a bit too old to be antsy pants?" She bops me upside the head swiftly, "I sure as hell don't! You shouldn't think so either! No matter how old you get you will always be my baby and you will always be my little antsy pants so suck it up mister!!"

I nod and kiss her cheek snagging a piece of bacon from the plate behind her. She turns back to the stove as I go towards the living room, "That's one less piece for your plate Anthony Wayne." I smile to myself. She doesn't miss much!!

I fix my hair then look at myself in the mirror. I shrug and shut off the light heading to my mom's office. "Thanks for the breakfast mom." I kiss her forehead and she smiles as she cups my face with her hand.

"Anytime. Now, sit so we can talk." I nod and sit across from her. "Anthony, sweetheart. You know that I love you honey. I really think that you would benefit from a tutor. I think you are incredibly smart, and I know you can do hard things. You however disagree, correct?"

I shift uncomfortably and nod, "Yeah I guess you could say that." She nods and reaches for my hand. I give it to her and she squeezes my hand gently, "Is this something you're willing to try Anth?" I shrug not feeling as open as I did the night before.

She frowns and sighs, "Lovely, let me put this in perspective for you. As much as I say it you are not a baby anymore. You're an adult now. A man. Sweetheart, I wouldn't care if you lived with me forever however your dad. Well, your dad is old school. I know you have a job and you pay your bills and rent. I appreciate that very much. Dad wants you to bring your grades up and graduate college"

I roll my eyes and scoff. I pull my hand away and laugh shortly, "Yeah I'm a man, I have to help provide. Nothing I do is good enough for him is it?" She frowns and shakes her head, "He loves you very much Anthony. He is very proud of you he just isn't a very outward person when it comes to his emotions."

I shake my head and shrug, "I think you're right about the tutor and I managed to get one. Ms Downes will be tutoring me after school." I walk to the door and open it, "I'll be out sometime after my birthday. Then he won't have to worry about me staying here" I walk out and close the door quickly. I feel bad for kinda snapping out at her but I couldn't stop myself. I never can. I always push people away. It's how I am, how I've always been. Maybe I should get some help. I'll look into that, however, I'm gonna enjoy the day off.