Cibophobia || Corpse's Husband

3 || "Happy Fucking Birthday Dear Me!"

TW:  Eating disorder, Self harm, Suicide, Cancer, Death.

A|N: so the first chapter was set on the 12th of feb, the second one was set on the 5th and this on the 13th. ( so will the next one too) dont ask idk

"Daddy stuck around but he wasn't present, cheated on your mum but she never left him"

- The neighbourhood || Daddy issues

Sids POV

Sunday, 13. Febuary

Dear Diary -

It's my fucking birthday. i dont know how to feel. Beth told me to stop being so blunt in the diary but i cant fucking help it, the diarys dumb. it doesn't even help. okay, i say that but it does actually work other wise Beth wouldnt make me write in it. she only does stuff to help. anyway i have to go, they're gonna make me a cake and then expect me to eat it but if they make me ill just throw it up, idk. i guess that's the best option for me right now. anyway, it's Sunday so tomorrow I'll get to go back to the nut house. yay lucky me right.

bye diary, Sid.

'So, you're just going to ignore her death as a whole?'

'Pretty much yeah'

We sat in silence for 20 minutes until I broke down. My head on my knees with my arms hugging my knees closer to my head. Moon diserved the fucking world. She deserved the real moon to burn in front of her. She deserved everything. She is- was my everything. Her parents were meant to be coming round later to pick up her stuff, i took a load of shit i knew she would have let me take, small shit. pics of us, lipgloss, jackets, crystals, alcohol she has hidden under her bed. Why couldn't cancer of just took her instead of her taking her own pain away?! Dumb stupid fucking life! Dumb world and even shitter people!

I was sat on the desk listening to \Daddy issue by The Neighbouhood/ when a small tap on my shoulder made me freak out and pull my headphones off. I slowed down my breathing and saw it was the same tall figure that was there in the halls yesterday. Thinking about it, he was the same guy I saw last week too.

'shit sorry man, yo whats up' i sounded so british then? of course my accent was noticeable from everyone else around me, but then it almost sounded like i was nervous?

A deep horse voice spoke. 'I was called to come back today by doctor Fox' An uncertainty in his voice.

'Ah Foxy! Yes, he isn't in today' my voice and face as straight as a pole. He sighed and nodded while walking away.

'Wait-/I dont know why i did that/- I could get another doctor for you? I know every single nurse, doctor, midwife, surgeon and patient that comes in and out of this place.' I spoke every word with truth.

I replaced one unhealthy addiction with another. Obsessing over the hospital helped me focus but also helped me with my future. If i lived long enough id re take education and become a nurse. But the chances of that happening it so slim it may as well not be there.

He turned back around and the corner of his black mask moved up with indicated he was smiling.

'Okay, fine. I need another one kind of quick. I need to get back home'

I smiled at him and turned to the voice speaker.

'Can doctor James Prince come to reception as soon as please and thank you'
spoke over the speakers throughout the whole building. Two minutes later the elevator (Lift) dinged and doctor Prince and Beth came out mid conversation. Something was going on here and i would figure it out in our next session.

'Ah Princy this is, em... someone, they need doctors assistants right away since Foxy isn't here and you were the next doctor i though of to take over this - for some reason - random patient that again - for some reason - i didn't know about?'

'Ah yes Carter. He asked to be unknown to any doctor he isn't being assisted by. Don't worry, this here is Sid, Sid- thats Carter. Sid just, sometimes helps around. Mainly weekends.'

'Yeah i remember her from the past two weeks'

Well that's good to know he hasn't got a memory loss situation. Things like that upset me.

'Okay Sid why dont you go to the kitchen hun, you know Beth wants to make cakes today. It's not everyday you turn 21!'

'Yeah James that's because it's not my birthday everyday. Id be much older if that was the case'

'Oh happy birthday, i didn't notice it was' he sounded totally unbothered

'Oh yes! Happy Fucking Birthday Dear Me!' I said in the loudest and sarcastic voice I could.