I Wish

2

It was the beginning of February 2013 and the boys were about to go on tour. Niall wanted me to tag along for as much as I could, so I agreed. It was actually both Zayn and Niall's idea for me to come with them.

Zayn and I were super close, not like Niall and I but still close. Most of the boys were all like my brothers I never had. They were all amazing, except Harry. It was a little confusing that in the media he was a womanizer and super duper kind to everyone. Both fake. I mean this year he's been a little bit nicer I guess. Niall or any of the other boys know about this. I don't want to ruin their friendship with Harry or anything so I stay quiet.

But back to the upcoming tour. All of the boys, close friends, and I visited Costa Rica for a few weeks. We only had like 2 weeks left sadly. There was yoga, swimming, ziplining, hiking, and so much more we did. Definitely will be coming back.

It was on February 3rd that Harry and I had our first full conversation.

It was later in the night I decided to walk to the yoga area on the property we were staying at. Quietly I slipped out of Niall's arms in the bed and grabbed my yoga mat, leaving my phone. I also picked up some water, chips, and dip from the kitchen before leaving.

The air was thick and humid that night, and just stepping outside made me a little bit tired. I followed the small stone path to the building.

It was somewhat small overlooking the hill and water down below. One whole was windows and another was mirrors. It had a small bathroom in the corner, but nothing else. No lights, not the best air conditioning, and a broken door.

After a few minutes, I arrive and go in. Lay my mat out, and open up the food. Starting with a child's pose and then moving forwards to cat and cow. Nice and calm, I felt like my body was floating a bit.

That ended quickly when I heard the door handle shake. I snap back and pick up my water bottle for protection. We aren't staying in a big populated area so I could die right now. No one would find me.

Finally, after then struggled for a second the door creaks open. Harry walks in. He's wearing tie-dye sweats and a hoodie. Wtf?

"Oh my fucking god Harry, you scared me" I put the water bottle down and see him walk over to me. "What are you doing here anyway? Isn't it like 3?" genuinely confused.

He goes past me to the corner picking up a yoga mat and then lays it near mine. He sat down and then shrugged.

"I heard someone leave and looked out the window and saw someone down the path," Harry said as if it was obvious. "You're pretty good at yoga, teach me"

I just sat there staring at him for a second to see if he was serious.

"Okay," I say still weirded out.

I went through most of the main positions before I went through a routine. It wasn't that bad, he's not that bad. We laughed together. Like talking and making jokes like normal people. We ate the chips and continued with yoga. That he is not good at, not the most balanced person I know.

"Have you been doing yoga for a long time?" Harry questioned.

"Yeah since the day I was born, my parents brought me to the yoga studio they owned" I answered.

"Another question, why would you ever move from Florida to a small town in Ireland?"

"How do you know I'm from Florida?" I pause.

"Niall talks about you a lot, you are really lucky to have such a good friend like him" wait? Does Harry know I'm dating Niall? "So? Florida to Ireland"

"Oh yeah, my parents got bored so they asked some random person at a store where their family was from. Then we moved there. Definitely wasn't better than Florida, but I met my now boyfriend so it's all okay" I notice Harry's smile fade a little bit. What did I do now?

We continue stretching in silence, now in down dog position. I notice the sun is beginning to rise so I finish and go back to child's pose.

"You don't have to do this but I always begin and end with child's pose" he follows my lead and goes to that pose with no response.

After a few moments of silence, I sit up and begin grabbing my stuff. Harry rolls his mat up and puts it back in the corner. We walk to the door and try to open it.

"Can you try to get it?" I say unable to open it. Harry tries but is also unsuccessful.

"We could just break it down" he shrugged.

"No, this place is old I feel bad" I snap back.

"It's okay just take the whole thing down then and build a new one," Harry said. "Do you have your phone on you, you could call someone?"

"Shit, I left it in my room" I felt my pockets looking for it.

"Guess we are here till someone sees us" Harry huffed out looking around the building.

"It's really not that bad, I don't think I'm that horrible to be around" knowing damn well he hates being around me. He gave me a quick side eye looking me up and down.

Make it any more obvious Harry.

"Why don't you like me, if I did something wrong I'd like to know. But I don't think I have, so if you hate me for no reason then fuck you" I finally say. He looks at me with a confused expression.

"What do you mean?" Harry asked.

"Literally every time I enter a room you would either leave or stop the conversation then glare at me. That was before, now you just fully ignore me" I snap out.

"No I don't," he says back.

"Yes, yes you do and I just want to know why the fuck are you acting like that. What did I do?"

"It's not important, you don't understand" he mumbled.

"Just tell me, and don't fucking mumble"

"I said it's not important, and you wouldn't understand"

"What don't I understand, just tell me"

"Lola"

"Harry"

"I really like you"

Oh.

Cringy.

"So you don't hate me?"

"No, like I said I REALLY like you"

What.

"I'm confused"

"You know how much Niall likes you, that's how much I like you. It's not how much Liam or Zayn or Louis like you"

Oh.

"Okay"

I turn around to try to open the door again but with more aggression this time.

"Lola please listen"

"Please"

I turn to Harry. He has a pleading expression on his face. I notion him to speak.

"I really didn't know why at first, but before I met you I only knew of you based on what Niall said. And you seemed like this amazing person which you are. And I didn't know anyone like that so I was jealous he had a friend like that. Once I finally met you I started to like you. But that was when you and Niall started. So I just started to ignore you hoping we would just stay away from each other but it looks like that didn't work. I'm really sorry now thinking about it I've been a douchebag to you" Harry explained to me.

Whoa.

That's a lot to take in.

Right before I'm about to say something the door opens. I turn to see Niall all smiley still in sweatpants and a hoodie from the last night.