Late Thoughts For Her

Greed and Guilt.

I don't know anymore. I just want to be better but this thing inside me is just slowly eating my relationship with her.

She needs a better person but why I can't be the better person?

Don't say you're uncomfortable from that and that. I didn't do wrong. I never was making you uncomfortable. I just don't wanna feel left out.

I know it's my choice to show my lovely things. You understand that? I know I could not force you cause it's not the right thing but my heart is begging for it and I still make my mind to stop my heart and stop showing how greedy I am.

The picture is only I have, but I don't mind. It's not like I would think of us the other way where we are seperated.

To be honest, these things what I'm saying is such nonsense.

I just sometimes want to kill myself with guilt cause I'm already drown with guilt of being such a person you get uncomfortable with.

I am guilty to all the things that I've done made you uncomfortable and it will leave as a wound to my heart and I would never heal that, cause it's a part of me that I won't hurt you anymore.

Wishing all good things for you but I don't think a guilty person has the right for that for you.

I will always remember that you are my life. The more you become uncomfortable, it just makes me think my life is slipping away and probably I'm just hurting myself.