Late Thoughts For Her

I Wish

I wish I've controlled my feeling and shouldn't stayed mad.

It was immature of me to do that so. She said that "When people get angry, they say what they actually want to say to the person."

I know most people believe that, from what I said to her is not becuz I actually want to say to her. I wish have an actual excuse instead of being tired from serving a community from like 7:30 AM to 5:30 PM.

Yeah, I am tired. Tired to be an absolute trash boyfriend and just fucking be better like cmon, tou fucking dork. If I can see myself in like another person, ai would lash out and just kill him which is myself.

I wanna kill myself for not comforting her, because I've hurted her from my anger. I wanted her to look at me as a comforting person, not some stupid angery guy like AAGAHHRH. >:(

I am so mad at myself that I am wishing to kill everything inside me and out. I just want her to feel comforted and yet. I failed her. Failed being a great boyfriend.

I mean why can't you just control your emotions and just comfort her. It's so fucking easy to do and you can't even do it. I hop you die in hell, myself. I wish you could just get rejected instead of accepting you as a boyfriend, cause you'll never be a great boyfriend to any girk that you would might like. You're terrible. A bad person. A monster. A nobody. You're not special.